guardian angel

We can't just "move on"

Somebody just actually said to me "you're the realist X fan I have ever seen, who can't move on" how heartless can somebody be? Who can't move on? Wow.. All I was doing is writing about the good he has done, How can somebody just move on from losing somebody as beautiful as X? Somebody we love and relate to so much? Somebody that helps us, somebody that gave many, myself included hope, somebody that helped me find myself and who I want to be, a better me, it doesn't matter how many years go by, death is still as heartbreaking as it was from when It first happened, people are still hurt by 2pacs death, there's no fucking time limit on how long you should be sad for, how long you should write about him for etc, it's fucked up to say move on etc when y'all don't know how we feel about this guy, how much this guy helps us

What a horrible comment to wake up to

People said this kinda bs to Billie eilish too, telling her to move on etc, that's her friend! We all see X as a friend! It's not easier to just get over it bc he's "just a rapper" we never knew him in real life but we feel as if we did, we feel so close to him it's unreal <3 he's more than just a rapper to us, he's somebody we go to when we feel so low, he's somebody that helps us when others put us down, he's somebody that gives hope to this messed up world, he's somebody we can relate to in so many ways which is comforting in its self, knowing somebody we love and look up to has also been through messed up shit, knowing we have been in smaller situations helps, we know we ain't alone, he's somebody that helped many, myself included open up about things that we couldn't talk about before, he opened up about his childhood and even that came back positive! He's helped me and others by telling his story bc we now know we are no longer alone! I want to tell my story and hopefully have this kinda impact on others that feel alone, He's somebody that comforts us when we feel so damn shity, when we feel like we don't know what to do, we play his songs, we watch his videos, we can just think of something inspiring he has said and it helps us

I said to him

"i thought you was being nice but who can't move on? You're sick, hopefully when your family member dies, you will realize you can't just "move on" and yes I said family member, many, myself included sees X as somebody close when there's others that see him as "just a rapper" y'all don't know how tf we feel, the connection we feel with him, I needed to find out about him, he has helped me in so many fucking ways and I am grateful for him, writing about him, writing the GOOD he has done is called keeping his legacy alive, many write about him for that and bc it also helped them to write about him and we can do without rude heartless people like you, it doesn't matter how many weeks, months or years go by, there's no time limit on long we should be hurt for that we lost somebody as beautiful as X, we lost somebody very special, this fucked up world needed somebody as caring and kind as X, he was taken at 20, all his life he wanted to die then he found hope, he no longer wanted to but then his life was taken from him! He spent years battling his mind, it took him a while to get into his positive mindset but it only took a few minutes for the monsters to take his life, to take all his hard work away and that's so fucking heartbreaking, His death is tragic, he had a son on the way, its not about "moving on" you can't move on from somebody you love dying, losing somebody that helps you, helped millions of kids and adults, somebody that you relate to in so many ways, somebody that wanted to just make this world better, blocked."

People just don't understand how we feel about him/about his death, people are so ignorant and thats just whatever but to say that kinda bs, that's not okay, people might laugh at me with their friends, call me names, people might think I'm just obsessed or whatever but I know how I feel and how grateful I am for him and I will post about him if I want to, I will not be ashamed to say how I feel and how much I appreciate X and everything he has done/helps me with, also I'd rather be "obsessed" with somebody as beautiful and inspirational as X that made me realize my wrongs and helped me want to better myself after damn years of being horrible and never changing than anybody else

We can and will write about him as much as we want, it's about keeping his legacy alive, we will cry about him now and again, who wouldn't? He's a beautiful human being that was took too soon, we will feel hurt forever bc he made a very big impact on us, helped us with personal things, helped us open up, helped us be better, made us realize the wrong we have done and helped us change into a better person, his death alone made me realize many things and how lucky I will to be here after all the dumb shit I've put myself through, after going out alone, getting drunk, it's not safe anything can happen at anytime, I know that now.. He's helped in ways we can't always explain and that's very special.. people are just so rude and heartless,