Another Go

Chapter 10: Aarav's 1st I love you

"Why seeing Aarav makes me so happy and so nervous at the same time? It's been 6 years, but vibes with him are still the same.

I spent 6 years, thinking Aarav moved on. But what happened in the church proved Aarav hasn't moved on too! Walking down the aisle was always my dream. But that dream disappeared after Aarav left. I couldn't even think of being with any other guy.

Few months after we broke up, Sumee took me to the church, the same church I went with Aarav. As I stepped in, all the memories came in front of my eyes. I couldn't control my tears. I cried as if no one was watching me. Sumee tried her best to calm me but I kept on crying and crying. That day I promised not to step inside the Church without Aarav.

I went to the Church today, because Aarav was with me. The way we spent our last night, I thought Aarav and I were in the good term. I wanted to have a fresh start. I felt so bad, when Aarav didn't come inside the Church. Aarav must have thought that I didn't care about those promises. But honestly I really went inside just because Aarav was with me. I believed those memories won't haunt when he's with me.

I came out of the church to find him. I smiled when I saw him in the backyard, old habits don't just go away. I went towards him, he must have cried. I sat besides him but he ignored me. I asked him if he was okay, but he was just quiet. Then I shouted at him just to make him speak because his silence hurts more than his hard words. And as per my plan he spoke, not just spoke he shouted back."

I stopped writing when my phone started beeping. I wrote my feelings on my diary cause I was feeling so bad and wasn't able to sleep. Sumee's picture was on my phone. I picked up the call. I pretended to act sleepy. I scolded her for waking me up at the midnight. But she knew my mood just by looking at my face.

"Stop acting and tell me what happened" she calmly said.

I couldn't control my tears when she said that. I wanted to hug her so badly.

"Aarav's here with me." I told her.

"Rushav!! Anna and Aarav are together." I heard her screaming.
Rushav and Sumee shifted to US last year. Then I told them everything.

After Aarav and I broke up, things got so hard for them. The struggle of having common friends. I changed the college after we broke up. Sumee and Rushav neither left me nor Aarav. They were always with us. They tried their best to sort things between Aarav and me, but we were so stubborn. Years passed. They used to visit me during vacations.

One day Sumee called me and said they got the visa to US. They held a small gathering before they left, but I missed that. I wasn't ready to face Aarav. The night before their flight, I met both of them and had the final good bye cause I wasn't planning to go to the airport.

"Tell him that you went to the church after 6 years" Rushav brought me back to the reality.
"No, he thinks I've moved on. So I'll just act as I moved on." I gave them a weak smile.
And I made them promise not to tell anything to Aarav. Rushav agreed but Sumee didn't.

After few minutes, we hung up cause I was so sleepy.

I woke up after 4 hours. I took a shower and came out of the room. The hall was empty and everyone's doors were closed. I went to the kitchen and started making breakfast.

Few moments later, I heard a door opening. Aarav came out from his room, drying his wet hair. It was hard not to stare at him. No matter how hard I tried to go far from him, I just couldn't. As he walked towards me, my heart started beating faster. I told you, only Aarav held the power to make me so happy and so nervous at the same time. He didn't speak a word. He opened the fridge and took out an apple.