Amor

~Chapter 22~

Warning!! This chapter contains rape so if that makes you uncomfortable or if you just don't like that kind of topic, skip this chapter. Read at your own interest.

Walking into the school library, I made my way to the classic novels section. It's been weeks since I've been in here and I figured it'd be good for me to at least try to restore normality.

After my meltdown last night, Jesse asked if I wanted to talk about what I was feeling but I declined. I still haven't spoken a word to anyone but I make an effort to cooperate and not act like a zombie. No more staring at walls or hiding underneath my blanket.

Getting dropped of at school this morning, I made a mental note to not let anyone see how sad I really am. I can't handle anymore pity looks or condescending remarks. Just smile and make it through the day and I'll be fine.

Thankfully I managed to avoid running into any of the guys on my way to class but it'll be lunch soon and I don't know if I should join them. But I postpone that thought for now and instead focus my attention on what book I should read.

I touched the spines of the novels with my fingertips and let my subconscious decide. Landing on a dark green one, I take it out to read the title; Pride and Prejudice. Looks like I'll be reading this one for the twelfth time. Turning around to leave I freeze when I remember this is where I met Donovan for the first time.

Flashback

"Hmm I haven't read this one in a while." I pull out the book, open to the first page, and turn to go check it out. And just my luck, I crash into someone for the second time today. I feel myself starting to fall backward but a strong arm catches me and I'm pulled into a hard chest.

"Woah sorry, I didn't see you." A smooth yet somewhat deep voice apologizes. I'm still a bit shaken up from the sudden movement and I'm trying to catch my breath. My heart is beating quickly and I tell myself to calm down. My mind is too occupied to notice that this person's arms are wrapped around my waist.

"Hey, are you okay?" A hand gently grabs my chin, making me look up. Suddenly all thoughts of controlling my breathing go out the window as I  audibly gasp.

"Are you okay? You're breathing really fast" he looks at me with concern as I shake my head and try to regain control.

He's patient with me for the time it takes me to finally calm down and he surprisingly rubs my back like Jesse does when this happens. It felt safe when he did it.

"T-thank you. I'm s-sorry for that." I look down so I don't get caught up in his eyes again and because I'm nervous.

"You don't have to apologize. I'm the one who bumped into you. I'm Donovan by the way."

End of flashback

The moment I looked into those caramel eyes I was lost in them and never wanted to leave. Feeling tears beginning to build up, i take deep breaths and calm down. I can't breakdown right now or else i won't be able to stop myself.

Once my heartbeat has gone to it's normal pace I go check out the book and leave the library. The hallways are crowded with teens trying to get to class or stalling by talking with friends as I walk through. I bump into bodies on my way to the dance room but eventually make it there in one piece.

A couple of students are in here when I look around. Since there isn't a class right now, everyone is chatting amongst themselves but I'm searching for Ms.Hannah to give her a note from Jesse. He wrote it this morning while I got ready and it basically explains that I should take it easy the next couple of practices so I don't pass out.