all for you

// alternate ending: what if?

a/n: no one asked for it but here u go hehe :)))

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Date unknown.

"I can't believe this," bungad ni Jo pagkakita niya sa akin. "What is this bullshit? Oh, please, tell me this is just fake news..."

I put down my Starbucks cup. "Ano ba 'yan, Jo? Ba't gigil na gigil ka?" tanong ko sa kanya.

Sinenyasan niya ako na lumapit sa PC niya. "Basahin mo."

Sky Villegas, main vocalist of the P-pop band BF5, will be departing from the group due to personal reasons.

The singer himself confirmed this via his latest Instagram post.

"This is one of the hardest decisions I have made," he wrote. "The five of us are like brothers already. Sa totoo lang ayoko silang i-let go, pero kailangan kong sundin ang puso ko this time."

He did not disclose his actual reason for leaving, but fans are already speculating whether he decided to pursue a solo career or there is any other reason.

"What the fuck?"

"Yeah, what the fuck."

"Why would he do that, though? Ang lungkot, puta."

"Masakit, kamo."

Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero sa lahat ng masasakit na nangyari sa akin lately, dito lang ako hindi naiyak. Instead, nagalit ako. Hindi sa kanya, pero sa sistema.

'Tang ina. Bakit kayo pumayag? Sinayang niyo yung tao. Tsk.

Pero on another note, kung totoo nga iyon, it still is questionable.

Bakit nga naman siya aalis sa grupo? I know how much he loves what he's doing. Everyone does. Why would he let go of it that easily?

Napaisip ako. Nilagok ko lahat ng natitirang kape sa Starbucks cup ko. Naglakad-lakad ako back and forth sa cubicle ko, thinking of a way para malaman ang puno't dulo ng lahat.

"Fuck!" I whispered to myself, almost inaudibly.

"Ano 'yon?" tanong ni Jo. Narinig niya pala.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, gago, punyemas, gago talaga, what if it's because of me?" I slapped myself repeatedly and pulled my hair in disbelief. "My goodness, Joanne, hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko kung umalis siya sa BF5 dahil lang sa'kin! Ugh."

"Calm down, lady. Why would you even be involved in there? Na-debunk na yung dating rumors sa inyo, right?"

"Are you telling me to calm down? And yes, that shit is over, pero... Argh, d'yos ko po, what if umalis siya kasi their company does not allow them to date but he actually wants to?"

"Could be. Pero ano nga ang kinalaman mo doon, Thea girl?" She took a sip from her water bottle. "Ay, teka lang. Official na kayo?"

"Ha? No!"

"'Wag mo nang i-deny, girl."

"Hindi nga kasi!"

"So what's the real score?"

I pulled her up. "Do'n tayo sa labas mag-usap."

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"Now tell me what happened," sabi ni Jo.

"Hours after the concert. Gabi na 'yon, pauwi na dapat ako. Bigla niya akong nilapitan at umamin siya sa'kin."