Felixity (Chanlix FF, english)

-xXChapter 35Xx-

„Should we make breakfast? You look like you don't want to go home", Jisung said while walking in the kitchen. Felix noticed he was hungry and now his stomach growled. „So this is a yes. I can't cook that much but it should be good enough for breakfast. So tell me a bit about yourself. You're friend to Yunmin and Seungmin, right? I have once talked to Yunmin. He was funny."Felix appreaciated Jisung wanting to talk to him and trying to distract of the fact, that Chan broke his heart another time. „Yes, they are my friends." Felix smiled a bit.

Jisung handed Felix out a plate with food. „Just sit and feel like home. It's nice to have some company while eating. I would be alone now." Jisung smiled brightly. Yes, Jisung would be a great friend. „I would be alone too". Jisung wanted to be friends with Felix, because he is such a nice boy and wanting to spend the time with him. „Hey, you wanna hang out later with me? You also can ask Yunmin and Seungmin, if you want. I guess it would be more fun being more." Good idea. Felix was so honoured to spend time with such a nice person like Jisung. It felt like he would reached a hand for him and trying to grab him out of his world of pain. „Sounds great", Felix said, while he was eating. Jisung food was also great. „Your cooking is really nice". „Thank you. Chan doesn't like it at all. He always looked like he eats trash. Such a sad thing".

„How about Changbin? Does he like your cooking?" Jisung's eyes started to sparkle. „Yes, he always loves it, when I cook for him. You should see his face, when I tell him, I have cooked something for him. You proabably not know it, but he wants to be your friend". Jisung's eyes were sparkling so bright, when he spoke of Changbin. Everybody could see how much Jisung loves him. Must feel so nice. „ He is nice, so I've it a try. I will call Yunmin and Seungmin now. I know they already woke up. Just give me a minute." Felix grabbed his phone and texted his friends. They were okay with the meeting and Felix put his phone back in his pocket.

The sound of the door reached Felix's and Jisung's ears. Chan is back. Felix felt a bit scared because seeing him would hurt him again. Chan was entereing the flat and saw that Jisung was not alone. Felix. „Why are you still here?", was the first thing Chan said this morning. No good morning and apology. The question shot right inside Felix's heart. So he was not wished to be here anymore. He should leave right now. „The fuck, Chan. Why are you treating him so badly?Felix told me everything. I know you're desperate because you can't find the right one but don't play with Felix like this! He is not your toy! When I came home, he was standing there, naked, and hoped it would be you. Don't give him hope. Ifyou don't love him, that's okay, but please treat him nicely. He doesn't deserve it."

Chan was shocked. Not only because he never heared coming such a powerfull speak out of Jisung's mouth. Chan got scared of Felix talking with Jisung about his edgeplay kink. It was the last thing he wanted Jisung to know, so he grabbed his arm roughly. „We need to talk." He reached for his room and shut down the door. Chan was facing Felix. „Did you tell Jisung about my edgeplay kink? If so..I will tell you....I will hurt you so much that you wish you were dead." There was just rage in Chan's eyes. Everything kind was gone again and it felt like the Chan from yesterday was just a daydream. „D-don't worry. I haven't told him about it at all...why did you leave? I was alone untill Jisung came." Chan grinned fakely. „Oh so you were thinking like you wake up and I was laying next to you? Sorry to tell you but yesterday...I was controled by my edgeplay kink and I didn't think right." So this is it. Chan apologized again for being kind. This time Felix won't cry. The faster he leave this flat, the less he feels the pain. Jisung waited for him. „Is everything okay? What did Chan do to you? You can tell me." Felix smiled fake. „Everything is all right. Don't worry. See you later".

Right after he was came home, Felix mother started another fight of why he wasn't replying to her calls. Felix just ignored her and went to his room, locking the door, so he could be all alone. There were still the many picture of Chan on his wall and for the first time Felix didn't want to see them anymore. A bit later he apologized to his mum, giving her excusing that Minho's death still made him a mess and he promised he will tell his mother, when leaves home, wich was soon. He told his mother about Jisung, his new friend and it was nice to hear. It ment Felix is  going to be better. A death of a friend is something really hurtful one but somehow it looked like Felix was hiding something. Hiding something deep.

Chan, why are you always such an asshole, here? >:V Poor Lixie :(((( Ugh, my back hurts but I want to write. Thinking of writing a JeonghoFF with a psycho Jeongin (insane Jeongin is a new level,yeah I always say stuff like but IT'S LIKE THIS) and a scared Minho but I am not sure if somebody would read it, since nobody ship it :'))) Wouldn't have smut btw