Save Me From This Hell

I'm Sorry

Catherine's (y/n) point of view

I must've been out here for an hour so I thought Its best I get back to camp. I finally approached the camp just as the sun had setted, I look at everyone and asked them if Zak is back yet.

Catherine (y/n): "is Zak back yet?"

Jay: "not yet sis, I'm sure he won't be much longer"

I couldn't say anything I just nodded my head and sat down in a camping chair. I just sat there all quiet and sad, I was even feeling worried about Zak, I hope he's OK and I hope he'll forgive me. After a little while I started to join in with everyone's conversations again, but I knew the girls can tell I was still feeling a bit sad and they both even came over and hugged me.

Morgan: "everything's going to be OK Catherine (y/n), Zak will come back and you'll both be OK"

Catherine (y/n): "I know we will, but I just can't help but feel everything won't be OK"

Victoria: "everything will be OK sis"

They both hugged me again and as our hug ended I saw Zak walking over to us and joined our group again. He looks hurt but I can tell he wasn't as angry as he was but there is still slight signs of anger in him....what makes it worse, he won't even look at me.

As we was all talking I noticed Zak kept looking at me but when I looked at him all I can see in his eyes was anger. To be honest the way he was looking at me made me feel uncomfortable and I felt like I needed to get away. So I decided I was going to turn in for the night and go to our tent.

Catherine (y/n): "Well after a busy day I'm feeling tired, so I'm going to bed... Night everyone"

Everyone: "goodnight"

Billy: "night sis"

Jay: "see you in the morning"

I purposely walked past Zak and looked at him and hoped he would react to me but yet again he didn't.. He did look at me but it wasn't long at all. Now I'm feeling hurt and my heart broke a little. I went inside the tent, and did it back up, climbed into bed and started to cry.

Zak's point of view

I still feel angry but nothing like I did earlier. When Catherine (y/n) walked past me and retrieved into our tent for the night I just looked at her. But inside I was beating myself up, the way I looked at her was horrible and I know she feels broken, I can feel her heart breaking a little from the way I looked at her.... I'm such a idiot.

Aaron: "Zak what is your problem?"

Zak: "what?"

Morgan: "'what?' Zak you're hurting Catherine (y/n) again.. God you're lucky you're Jay's best mate otherwise I'd be seriously kicking your ass right now for hurting my best friend"

Zak: "I'm not hurting her, I'm just annoyed she said that we should only worry about her if she has a attachment... Why would she say that?, she knows how I feel about her when it comes to her and possibly her having a attachment"

Billy: "but Zak, you hurt her when you walked away from her when she was trying to explain to you"

Jay: "she told us that you physically hurt her too"

As soon as Jay said those words I started breaking down. I physically hurt Catherine (y/n), I don't even remember doing that, everything that happened was a blur because of the way I was feeling and thinking. Now I'm feeling really guilty for what I've done.

I couldn't say anything I just sat there and blocked out everything around me. I blocked out the guys and girls talking, all I can hear is silence, my thoughts and my heart beating slowly and in pain. Not only that I can hear my girl very faintly crying in our tent, hearing her quiet sobs broke my heart even more. I need to fix this, I need to apologise to Catherine (y/n).

As everyone turned in for the night in their tents I just sat outside for a little bit longer and let my emotions out that I've been holding back since I returned back to camp. During my break down I decided to get up and make my way to mine and Catherine's (y/n) tent and quietly went inside.

I just looked at her and can see she has tear streaks trailing down her beautiful face. What hurt me the most was I'm the one who caused her tears. I carefully brushed some hair away from her face and stroked her cheek with my hand, ever so slightly she opened her eyes and looked at me.

I just looked at her and can feel tears building up in my eyes again.

Zak: "I'm sorry... I'm sorry I hurt you baby, I never ever want to hurt you ever again"

Catherine (y/n) took my hand into hers and held it tight, then she looked at me and smiled at me slightly.

Catherine (y/n): "baby I'm the one who should be apologising, and I'm sorry for saying what I did. I don't even know why I said it"

I smiled at her again, before I wrapped my arms tight around her. I've missed holding her in my arms, all I wanted to do this evening was hold her in my arms and carry on enjoying the perfect day we've had today, but things didn't go quiet to plan.

So now I'm making up for the time we've lost, I climbed into bed next to Catherine (y/n) and wrapped my arms around her tight. Even though I knew everything was OK with us now I just couldn't stop thinking that Catherine (y/n) won't forgive me for what I did. But just as I knew she would Catherine (y/n) comforted and reassured me everythings OK.

Catherine (y/n): "everything's OK baby I promise... Everything's OK with you and me Zak, and I'll never leave you"

A tear escaped from my eyes as I held Catherine (y/n) extra tight in my arms. Then she looked up at me before she kissed me.

Zak: "I love you Catherine (y/n)"

Catherine (y/n): "I love you more Zak"

I smiled at her again before I kissed her passionately, for the rest of the night all we did was hold each other....now everything feels perfect again.