Save Me From This Hell

Pain

Zak's point of view

She's gone, the love of my life has left me and has taken my heart and my life with her. I never meant anything I said, I don't want to let Catherine (y/n) go and find happiness with someone else.....I want her to be happy with me. This house is too quiet and empty without Catherine (y/n) and Cody here, I need them home.... I want my little family home where they belong.

It's been a couple of days since Catherine (y/n) left and I couldn't function properly, all I could do was sit on the couch and cry. As I broke down all I can hear is Catherine's (y/n) words repeating in my head like a echo.

'' Zak: "you're really leaving me?"

Catherine (y/n): "do I really have a choice? you made it clear you don't want to be with me anymore Zak, what am I supposed to do?" ''

Stop!

'' Zak: "baby... Please, I'll do anything to make it up to you... I can't lose you, not again".

Catherine (y/n): "it's too late for your apologies Zak, you've made your choice" ''

Her words screamed in my head, I couldn't take it any more I put my head into my hands to try and get rid of this painful reminder.

Zak: "please STOP!"

My heart was breaking more and more into thousands of pieces. Please bring Catherine (y/n) back, please take away this pain.

During my breakdown my phone notified me that I received a text message. I have to admit I've avoided my phone but at the same time I've been glued to my phone and have been hoping and praying that Catherine (y/n) will get in touch with me.

I nervously looked at my phone and saw Catherine (y/n) has finally texted me.

Catherine (y/n): "Hi Zak, I know you probably don't want to hear from me or even talk to me right now. But Cody really misses you and he would really like to see his dad.

I know you're not doing to well at the moment... the guys told me and I've been feeling the same. But we really need to come up with some sort of arrangement so you can see Cody and Sophia. I'm so sorry for hurting you Zak I really am.. Please text me back or even call me, I need to hear from you. Yours always. ❤️C xxxxx"

My heart was breaking just reading her text, I can tell she really wants to say more and I can even hear her thoughts screaming at her to "tell Zak how you really feel... Fix it". That's the only problem when you're empathic and even have a strong connection like me and Catherine (y/n) have... I can hear her thoughts and feel her pain on top of everything I am thinking and feeling.

I started to reply back, but I'm struggling with what to say to her. Whenever I started texting something I ended up deleting it and writing something else. Finally after a little while I finally came up with this text.

Zak: "Hey Catherine (y/n), I always want to hear from you. I miss Cody too... I'm missing all of you. I'd love to see Cody and Sophia, you choose the day baby and I'll be there. Even if you have to bring Cody here, just turn up I'll be here.

You have no idea how I've been feeling baby, everything that I do or see reminds me of you. How is Sophia doing? I'd love to go and see her. Don't worry baby we will make some sort of  arrangement and we'll stick to it. Don't apologise baby I'm the one that should be apologising.... I shouldn't have said all those things that I said, I don't mean any of it. I love you Catherine (y/n)... And I can't live without you and I can't live without Cody and Sophia. All of you are my whole world xxxxxxxx ❤️❤️ yours forever and always"

I sent the text to her and waited for a reply. I just wish I was able to see her right now, hold her in my arms and to never let go.

Catherine (y/n): "I'm so happy to hear from you I was so worried about you, we all miss you too. I'll have a look what day you can have Cody and see Sophia. I'm so glad we'll have this arrangement set up.

Zak I mean it I'm extremely sorry for the pain I'm putting you through, it's hard for me too and when Cody is looking around Jay's calling for you it breaks my heart even more 😢😔. I love you too Zak... Oh god I hate to say it but right now I can't forgive you for the things you said to me, you hurt me so much. But I also can't stay mad at you because of how much I love you and how much you mean to me, you mean the whole world to me Zak and I'll never love anyone else as much as I love you. Xxxxxxxx ❤️"

My heart hurts from the pain I'm feeling right now and I can feel how much Catherine (y/n) is hurting too. I want this pain to end, I want my girl back. I couldn't even think of anything to reply back to her, I'm starting to break down again. All I could text back was....

Zak: "I love you with all my heart and soul ❤️❤️❤️ xxxxxxxx"

After I sent the text I put my phone down, put my head into my hands and cried again.

Please make this pain go away................ Please put my life back together again and bring my family home..... Please.