Bad Romance

Lust

-From your POV-
I have no idea what came over us that night. Love? Lust? Anger? Pent up frustration? My guess is all of the above. I kept my arms wrapped around his neck and he tightened his grip around my waist, pulling me in closer and closing the space between us. I lightly opened my mouth to speak "Tom..." he tightened his grip again. "You're so dangerous to me, but I can't stop." With those words, nothing else mattered to me. I wanted this boy. More than anything. And I wanted him right now. I lean back into the kiss, which is now more intense than when it first began. What started as something faint and innocent was quickly turning into something intense and pent up.

We couldn't stand much longer, my knees were getting weak and I was leaning all my weight on Tom. He was surprisingly much stronger than I had originally thought. He sits down in the armchair and I sit down in his lap facing him, in effect straddling him. He runs his hand up my spine and when he reaches my shoulder blade, we pulls me into his face and our kiss resumes. I placed my hands on his sides and his hands were now sitting on the small of my back. I felt him lightly pull away and start kissing my neck. As he continue loosing control with each kiss, I slowly and gently slid my hands underneath of his shirt. I lightly run my hands up his abs all the way to his chest and he follows suit. He slips his hands underneath of my shirt and begins running his hand up my spine. He pulls away from kissing my neck for a minute and pulls his shirt off. And oh my God. Was it ever a site to see. He first loosened his neck tie and cuff links and then pulled it all off at once, tugging it over his head and throwing it onto the floor. I couldn't figure out which of his features I liked the best. Whether it was his dark eyes, his hair, or his toned abs and chest that I just discovered. I sat back for a minute and just marveled at his body before looking in his eyes again. Just from the look, I know that we both knew where this was heading ten minutes ago, and we both so desperately wanted it go there. He slowly goes back to kissing my neck and then kisses up to my earlobe which causes me to let out a gaspy-moan that was ever so faint. He uses his hands from under my shirt to pull it up and off over my head. Similar to how I marveled at his body, he marveled at mine. "My God you're gorgeous" .He resumed and kissed back down from my earlobe to my collar bone and slid his hands up my back, this time undoing my bra clasp while I clumsily undid his belt. "Take me there." I moan into his ear and he tightens his grip on me.
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We laid on the carpet on the floor of the room. My head was on Tom's bare chest and both his arms were wrapped around me, very tightly. With one of his hands, he stroked my head very gently and lovingly. I fiddle around with the ring on my finger. The silence wasn't awkward or emotional. It was just bliss. We stayed like that for the rest of the night and at some point drifted off.

We woke up the next morning to light from the sun rise flickering through one of the only windows in the room. I felt Tom move around first and then I opened my eyes. His eyes were still very sleepy and cute. My head was still on his chest and I felt him kiss the top of my head. I decide it's probably time to break the silence "I have to say, that unplanned sleepover was definitely better than our last." I look up to see him smiling. SMILING?! I MADE TOM MARVOLO RIDDLE, THE SLYTHERIN HEIR, THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE SMILE?? I smile back at him and put my head back on his chest.

"I will say, that was quite the birthday gift." He teases." I laugh when I realize that today was the 31st. I reach up and kiss his face.

"Happy Birthday." We just sit and smile at each other for a minute before I break the silence again. "I really do think we should talk about our relationship however." I tease and we both start laughing. After more laying around, we both get up and find our clothes from the night before and throw them back on. We had four more days in the castle before more people returned from holiday. Obviously, we had been taking advantage of the lack of security and authority in the meantime.

Once we're dressed, we make our way out to the corridor, sneaking out to make sure nobody notices. We decide it would be a good idea to go to Tom's room to talk. Because including yesterday's and last night's events, there was a LOT to talk about. We sat down on his bed and faced each other. "Shall I start?" I nod my head. He looks down and grabs my hands in his before looking back to me.

"I am so so sorry about everything. The way I treated you, played games, messed with Vanessa and Aria. Especially Aria. That was evil and I know better than that." He starts off.

"Can I please know the story behind Aria?" I ask. He lets out a sigh and then begins.

"We were in the common room the night you were out with Draco and she was going on and I'm about how you could get any boy you wanted and how tired she was of it, to be frank she was jealous, and she leaned in and kissed me and I kissed her back. I'm honestly not sure why, it was mindless and made me feel nothing. But kissing you is so much different. I can't explain it but that's how it is." He finishes. I smile and nod.

"I forgive you. I'm not mad, I was playing games too and that's not right either." I pause to think and feel my eyebrow furrow. "Is Aria really jealous of me?" I ask in curiosity. He nods his head.

"I had no idea she thought that way of you; I assumed you were best friends, but she spoke in envy about your knowledge and how people- especially boys- just sort of flock to you.". I was trying to take in all his words and calculating. And that's when it all started making sense. All of the sly sneaky stuff and comments make sense.

"Alright. That actually makes sense for some other stuff." I begin telling him about the whole Draco and Aria situation and how the store situation got really awkward.

"That's, wow."

"Yeah. A lot." I say with a sigh. We sit in silence and look off in the distance for a moment before Tom breaks it.

"You know I'm still going to be a hard-ass right?" He says. I crack a smile and shake my head.

"What I don't get a pass??" I say sarcastically. He smiles and shakes his head and then turns to me, making eye contact.

"No, I don't exactly have a special girlfriend treatment setting for the public to see." He says. His words make my stomach feel light and fluttery.

"Girlfriend?!" I say. He nods his head and holds my hand.

"What do you want to call you something else? My muse?" He says sarcastically and I giggle.

"Yes I want you to call me Y/n Sorcier, Queen of Dark Magic and almighty sorceress." I joke. It goes silent again for a moment before I break it this time. "Should we tell other people about us?" I ask. At the sound of my question, he turns his head to face me again and his eyebrows scrunch together.

"Do you want people to know?" He asks me. I look at the ceiling for a minute to think before turning back to him.

"Well, I have a feeling we're going to be making more enemies in the near and distant future..." I start off. "So maybe it's best if we keep it a secret? I don't want people to ever have such precious leverage over either of us." I explain. He gives a soft smile and nods at my answer.

"Our dirty little secret?" He suggests. I smile at him.

"Our dirty little secret." I confirm.

Dirty Little Secrets.