Bad Romance

Memory

-From your POV-

I sat on the floor of the secret room with Alex and Victoria at my sides, arms extended over my shoulders to comfort me. My eyes were so red and puffy from crying that they burned. Tom sat across from us with a confused expression on his face.  "So mate, how much do you remember?" Alex asked Tom. Tom's eyes darted to somewhere else in the room momentarily while he thought.

"Well, I obviously know who you three are. Y/n, Alex, and Victoria." he says pointing at us. "The last thing I remember, short term, was being attacked in the dark corridor near the owlery. Long term? Well, I know Y/n and I despise each other so as to why she's crying over me is confusing." he says in a flat tone. I felt my heart sink even deeper as my eyes continued to burn.

"You think Y/n and yourself are enemies?" Victoria asks him. He nods his head.

"Well yes, she's been my biggest competitor since our first year." he says confidently.

"Do you remember your girlfriend?" Alex asks him next. Tom tilts his head in confusion.

"What do you mean 'girlfriend'? I've never been the one to date. Are you joking?" Tom asks him in a confused tone. Alex shakes his head slowly and Victoria looks down at her feet. Tom quickly read the room and looked back at me. "Wait, were we-" he starts to ask before I cut him off with a nod and a confirmation.

"Yeah," I  push words out through sniffles. "yeah we were." I say to him.

"How long?" I did the math in my head quickly; we started dating around the New Year and it was now April, so only 3 months. In reality, we had been involved since the beginning of the school year, but not actually dating until the New Year. 

"3 months together, but we've been going back and forth since the beginning of the school year." I tell him. I watch as his eyes drop and he looks down at his feet.

"I'm sorry, I wish I could remember it, I really do." he said sincerely. I could tell he was being genuine; I was the only person Tom was every truly sorry to . But this encounter just hurt even more.

"I think it's best if we give you two a moment." Alex said as he looked at Victoria and she nodded. They both gave me a hug and wished me luck before leaving the room. Now it was just Tom and I. We sat directly across from each other, just staring at each other.

"You really don't feel or remember anything?" I ask him. He frowns slightly as he shakes his head. I look down at the ground and it goes quiet for a minute.

"What were we like?" he asks after a few moments of silence. I look up and our eyes meet again.

"Well," I gather my thoughts. What were we like?  "we were a lot of things. Mainly mischievous, but also very smart and sneaky. We still made fun of each other and everything, especially in public. In private, we let our guards down. We were softer, more intimate..." I begin to trail off as my mind takes me somewhere else. 

"Sounds peaceful. Like, a big difference from us hating each other." He says. I chuckle and nod, still sniffling.

"Yeah, yeah it was." I say lightly.

"You know, I think Alex..um..." he starts to speak but is very hesitant. "I think he has a thing for you." I feel my eyebrow furrow up.

"What?" I ask him, confused. 

 "The way he looks at you,it just seems like he likes you." he tells me. I just start shaking my head lightly.

"I'm still in love with you. I don't, I don't even think of Alex like that and I don't want to." I say. Tom just looks down at the ground and then back to me.

"What are we going to do now?" he asks me.

"We?" I ask him. He nods his head lightly.

"You're heartbroken. Are we not going to fix that?" he asks me. I give him a small smile. To be quite honest, I didn't expect him to want to help me. Let alone fix things and change back to how he was before the incident. I nodded my head.

"Okay. We. I'm going to start by reading the book that Victoria used originally, and then I'll ask Slughorn about the spell. If anyone were to reveal secret information about dark magic that we weren't supposed to know, it would be Slug." I see him give a small nod in agreement as he stares off in the distance.

"I uh, it's getting late. I'm going to my dorm. Goodnight, Tom." I say to him with a slight smile and I push myself up off the floor and make my way out of the room and down the corridors.

I had washed my face and changed into my pajamas before I crawled into bed. I have never felt like such a small person; all in one night, I got into a major fight with one of my closest friends, watched my boyfriend be possessed by a murderous spirit, thought I witnessed his death, and then found out he was alive only to find out he remembers nothing. He doesn't love me. He doesn't remember loving me. Nothing. It hurt so badly. I knew in my heart that he wasn't trying to upset me, which felt a little better, but nonetheless it still hurt. 

Minute after minute had gone by as I sat in my bed, knees curled to my chest, staring at my wall. I'm not going to get any sleep tonight.  After a while, I give in and just get out of bed. I sneak into the common room and sink into one of the big armchairs in front of the fire. I just stare at it and think to myself. I was so lost in thought I didn't even hear the door open. I was startled by someone coming and sitting in the chair next to mine. "Couldn't sleep?" the voice asks. It's just Alex. Without looking away from the fire, I just nod my head.

"Seen a lot today, haven't we?" I joke. He lets out a light chuckle.

"How are you feeling?" he asks me. This time, I at least give him the decency to face him. After all, he did help out quite a bit. 

"Tired. Very tired, actually. But mainly uneasy." I start shaking my head. "Something's not right and I can feel it." I say. His slight grin that was there before slowly melts into a slight frown.

"Oh.... Well, what's next?" he asks me.

"I'm going to get his memory back. I just, I can't throw away that much love like that." I say. I see a small sadness fill his eyes as he looks at the fire.

"Have you guys ever admitted that you love each other? In front of other people I mean?" he asks. I think about it for a minute before answering.

"No, we were private about it." I said. 

"Why? If you don't mind me asking." 

"No, it's fine. It was just a security and privacy thing." I say. 

"When did you know you loved him?" he asked me hesitantly, as if he really didn't want to know the answer.

"When I realized I would do anything for him." I start. "It wasn't planned, like at all, it was purely accidental. If you had told me that we'd end up together last year, I would've laughed hysterically." I explain. He just stares off into the fire.

"Well, I'm going to try and sleep now. Goodnight, Y/n." he says before leaving the room. Leaving me by myself, again. I decide to do some reading so I briefly leave the room just long enough to go get the book Victoria had used from my dorm so I could start looking. I was about 4 pages in when I realized: What spell did Alex use? It was wrong, I'm sure. Slug has told us before that when it comes to dark magic if a spell goes wrong, or if the wrong one is used, there are side effects.

I was sure I had figured out what happened.

I was going to fix it. 

I was going to get my Tom back.