DISCONTINUED If Only Memories Could Be Erased(A Shoto Todoroki X Oc Fanfic)

Ch53:

Tamaki's pov

I was lying in my bed when there was a knock at the door. I didn't have the energy or motivation to get up and answer the door. I stayed in my bed, covers wrapped around me. Another knock followed and I directed my gaze over to the door which was opened soon after the second knock. Dad looked behind him for a second before entering the room and shutting the door behind him. I turned my head so that I was face first in my pillow. The dip of my bed told me that he had sat down on the mattress.
"Tamaki? How are you feeling?" he asked. I mumbled in response. Some hair is pulled away from my face and tucked behind my ear. I tilt my head to look at him.
"Todoroki told me why you didn't show up today. Did you get yourself cleaned up?" he asks. I nod weakly.
"Well. Tomorrow is your first psychiatric. You'll need to get up early for that" he informs me. I roll onto my side to look up at him. He's facing the wall opposite my bed, hands intertwined with each other. I use all the strength I can muster and wrapped my arms around him. He turns his attention onto me. I bury my face into his shoulder. His hand finds itself on the back of my head, running through my hair like when I was a little kid.
"Is something bothering you?" he asks. I hesitate to answer, biting my lip.
"Tamaki?" he adds. I turn my head towards the wall next to my bed. I couldn't make eye contact. I didn't want to disappoint him. Dad moves, placing his hand on my shoulder.
"Something's bothering you" he states. I shake my head, strands of dirt covered hair brushing against my face. He sighs.
"Try and clean up for tomorrow alright" he informs me before pushing himself from the bed. Without thinking, I grab his sleeve. He turns to look at me.
"I.................I'm sorry that I didn't turn out how you expected" I mutter, looking down at my feet. He kneels down, placing a hand under my chin to lift my head up.
"Why are you apologizing?" he asks.
"Because you and mum wanted me to be the greatest hero out there and instead I'm too afraid to even leave my room" I whimper, clutching onto the sleeve of my shirt and directing my gaze downward.
"Is that why you wanted to come to U.A?" he asks.
"Well................ I don't know.... I don't know what I want anymore. Everything is just.......... Nothing I used to like or want interests me anymore and I can't find anything that I can enjoy doing now either" I mutter. I'm pulled into a hug by dad.
"I don't care what you end up doing. You could be a florist or a waiter and I'd still be proud of you. You don't have to be a hero if its not what you want to do. Its your choice. Not anyone else's. And if anyone thinks less of you if you do decide not to be a hero then I'll have them thrown in jail" he states. I push him back.
"Dad!" I cry out in protest. He smiles slightly.
"Don't worry. I'm not actually going to do that. But they definitely aren't worth knowing, that's for sure" he explains. I look up at him.
"I'm sorry for trying to push you away too.......... I just........I thought you'd be disappointed in me when you found out that I.........that I.... well-"
"I know what you mean. You don't have to say anything. And I could never be disappointed in you. I'm too relieved that I still have you here. That's the best gift that you could ever give me. You being here and living your life how you want" he assures me. He lets go of me, standing up.
"I can let Todoroki stay in here tonight if it will make you feel more comfortable" he adds. I nod.
"Be safe, alright"
"I'll try" I respond. He nods before walking over to the door and opening it. I stay where I am on the bed, watching him leave.

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So explanation time for why I've been gone for about a month.

Motivation is why.

Because of lockdown, I have plenty of time to write but I don't. Why? Because being stuck in the house with only my family for social interactions is very bad on my motivation for anything.

I'm going to try and get back to uploading since I have plenty of ideas for what I'm doing.

Another note: From this point on, it'll be my own ideas so I won't be following the manga story line.

Reasons for this are, 1. I have no idea how many people that read this are manga readers and 2. I have my own ideas that would clash with what happens in the manga.

I will keep things like who interns with who and small things like that the same, just change what happens instead.