Lovebug - Jonas Brothers
Shawn's POV
November-December 2015
"That was something...", I said when we were back in our dressing room when the show was over.
"Oh my God, we were so awkward!", she fake cried covering her face.
"You two really shook things out there", Roger, Camila's personal manager, said.
"Yeah. Fans are gonna go crazy", Andrew laughed.
"I was not prepared for those questions", I said in my defense.
"Don't worry, I'm sure people will love it".
"I hope so", Camila said hugging her mom, clearly ashamed.
Fuck, did she really feel so uncomfortable joking about us making out on James' show? She was kinda quick to deny what he was saying about us and the doubts fans had shared with him. Damn, I was just joking, I didn't want her to act differently around me.
"Well the performance went great...", our teams kept discussing while Camila wandered around the room and sat on the sofa. I moved there and sat next to her, I needed to clear things out.
"Is everything all right?" I asked softly.
"Yeah" she said instantly and looked at me with a smile on her face. "That was just... a lot, but it was fun".
"You didn't... I mean, we are..." I struggled to find the words, because I didn't want to make a big thing out of it if it wasn't for her. "We're ok, right? Regardless of all that nonsense".
She looked at me in silence and then nodded. Her lips slowly curved on a smile.
"We're definitely ok", she said and sighed mentally.
Our teams hurried us to get ready and leave. I stood up from the sofa and helped Camila stood up as well by holding out my hand for her. I felt the electricity when our fingers touched and I wished I could have blamed the adrenaline from being in front of the cameras and performing, but I knew that feeling well and this wasn't the same.
Days later I couldn't stop thinking about what we had discussed with James on the show. Was she really waiting for me to make a move? I had thought about it so many times before, and so many times I had backed out of it because I was too afraid she was going to reject me. Maybe this was my chance?
No, I was still terrified of messing things up. What if is all in my head and I ruin everything in the middle of our promo? The song was way too important for both of us to screw it.
"Come in", Andrew said when someone knocked on the door of the dressing room when I was getting ready to perform at the first Jingle Ball of the season. Camila came inside with her mom and some people from her team.
She went around greeting everyone and then was hurried to sit on a chair so the stylist could apply make up on her face.
"There's an interview in half an hour", Andrew said while I put my guitar away and stared at her through the mirror. We both look into each other's eyes with playful smiles on our faces but didn't say anything.
We had been texting nonstop lately, just teasing and making fun of each other. She had a way of making everything look brighter, funnier, and that was exactly what I needed in my life at the moment. I didn't know what we were doing, but I didn't want it to stop, it was like we were drawned together.
"Hey", I said softly when she was done and sat right beside him on the couch.
"Hi", she replied in the same manner.
"I was missing you".
"There was a lot of traffic", she explained.
"Figured".
She was stunning.
Lately we had become really good at staring into each other's eyes not saying anything, just smiling and being together. It didn't matter if there were more people around, we were in our own world and nothing could bother us there.
...
"That was so cool!", she shouted jumping from one foot to the other, her hands in tiny tight fists.
"Oh... that was great", I said touching my hair.
I knew performing with her in front of a large audience was going to be something, but... Oh God. The energy she had turned my world upside down and I couldn't stop smiling the whole time. I still felt the rush going through my body. It was really great and not just because of the vocals, but wow... the way she moved, the way she was looking at me. She completely knocked me down and I didn't know how to react but to laugh it off. What was she doing? I was trying to remain calm, but in all honesty, I was about to lose it.
"Where's my mom?", she asked looking around.
"Uh... I don't know".
People came by our side to take the sound system and wires out of us and then we walked to our shared dressing room. I could feel the heat of her hand radiating next to mine as we walked together. When I opened the door for her I was expecting our people to be there, but it was empty. I closed the door behind us and took a bottle of water from the mini fridge. She wandered around checking her phone.
"I can't get a hold of my mom", she said.
"She might be around, don't worry".
I sat on the sofa and she sat next to me. I still felt my skin burning and my heart beating fast. How did she look so unbothered? Was she really such a good actress on stage?
"Uh, so... What was that?", I asked.
"What was what?"
I looked at her and gave her the same look she had given me before. She laughed and blushed.
"Nothing... I was just playing", she said shyly.
"Oh that's playing. Ok... alright"
"What?", she asked more confidently this time and her stare was intense, I liked it.
"Nothing. You were just playing", I repeated.
She took the bottle of water from my hand that I still hadn't open and she opened it herself. She put it on her lips and looked at me while she drank from it. Damn...
"I was", she confirmed after swallowing the water and licking her lips.
I stared at her mouth, too caught up with my thoughts to worry about if I was being too obvious or not. Oh I wanted to kiss her... so bad. I swallowed and she gasped softly. Please be thinking the same thing, please Camila. Her skin looked soft and creamy, and her lips sweet as candy and I just wanted a taste.
I licked my lips involuntary, just driven by the moment but I caugh her looking at my mouth and that sent a goosbumps all over my skin. Should I... Should I make a move?
"Here you are!", a voice shouted and startled as both. "We were waiting for you in the main are", Andrew said.
I coughed and blinked to pull myself together and Camila almost jumped out of her seat to her feet.
"Have you seen my mom?", she asked Andrew quickly.
"She was with us and then had to make some phone calls, she should be back there now", he said eyeing us suspiciously.
"I'm gonna find her, excuse me", she said and walked past Andrew with a fast pace and left the room.
"Are you ok?", he asked me slowly.
"Yeah, totally", I answered as calm as I could.
"Uh-huh", he murmured. "Let's go".
Oh God I had almost kissed her, I was so close to say fuck it and kiss her lips. My heart was still beating fast. My mind was a battlefield trying to decide if that would have been a good thing to do or not. Part of me kept thinking how a kiss, maybe just one kiss, wouldn't be so bad.
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a/n: Can you feel the giggles and the cute tension?
