Liar - Camila Cabello
Shawn's POV
August 2019
I fell asleep very late at night last night and I woke up a couple of times just to go back to what we were doing earlier. I was exquisitely tired and it was a reminder of the crazy good love making sessions I had had with my girlfriend. That's right, my girlfriend. It still felt surreal but I loved repeating it again and again.
I was sleeping on my stomach, with one arm over her body and my face snuggled on her neck. She was laying on her back and I could feel her touching and playing with my hair even before I was completely awake. I breathed in her essence and moaned a bit when it hit all my senses.
"Hi", Camila murmured. I felt the word vibrate in her body and I squeezed her closer to me.
"Hi", I replied against her neck.
"Happy birthday", she whispered sweetly.
"Thank you, baby".
"How did you sleep?", she asked me and I couldn't help but smirk, even though she couldn't see me.
"We barely slept", I told her.
"Yeah, but", she said in between giggles, "was it a good night?"
I held the weight of my body with my arms to look at her. Her hair was spread all over the pillow and her skin look soft and tender.
"The best night", I whispered before lowering myself down and kissing her mouth.
Her arms wrapped around my neck and kept me close while our mouth discovered each other again, like if we hadn't done this so many times before. It always felt like the first time with her, because I wasn't taking any moment for granted. My kisses traveled to her neck and her breathing got thicker until she put her hands on my shoulders and pushed me away.
"Huh?", I said panting and confused.
"It's your birthday", she reminded me. "People are waiting to congratulate you".
"They can wait", I said and tried to go back to what I was doing but she was strong and didn't let me.
"We are getting out of bed and were going to shower, have breakfast and then going to see your family and friends", she stated.
I pleaded in silence with her for a few seconds, just staring into her eyes, but she was the most determined sometimes stubborn person I knew, so I clearly didn't have a chance here.
"Ok", I groaned and fell next to her on bed.
She sat up and caressed the side of my face before getting out bed.
"Holy shit", I breathed out when I saw the sheet slid down her body. She turned around confused but blushed when she realized what I was talking about.
"Shut up", she said shyly and picked my t-shirt to walk away.
I laid in bed while she used the shower, staring at the ceiling and smiling like an idiot.
My phone had been blowing off with messages notifications and when I picked it up I noticed I also had one from Camila. Weird, I thought, so I checked that one first.
[C: Happy birthday baby! Here's some more gifts for you, two songs that are going to be on my album and are just kinda inspired by you 😉 Tell me what you think but don't listen to them when I'm the room please]
My heart started racing halfway through the text. Oh my God, they were here. This was happening and I had been waiting for this moment for so long. Songwriting was our safe vulnerable place and I couldn't wait to find out what she had put together this time.
Right now, I'm shameless
Screamin' my lungs out for ya
Not afraid to face it
I need you more than I want to
Need you more than I want to
Show me you're shameless
Write it on my neck, why don't ya?
And I won't erase it
I need you more than I want to
I need you more than I want to
The moment her voice went high to say that she was shameless was the moment I lost it. A fire started inside me and my mind was blown. Shit...
It took me some time to gather my thoughts and make sense of everything. She had said she wanted me, that she was tired of loving someone that wasn't his, that our kisses were history. I couldn't believe my ears because she had really said all that on a song that was going to see the light in a few months for all the world to listen to it. She truly was shameless and I adored that.
I was ready to jump on the shower with her but before I needed to listen to the other song.
My ego was through the roof when I finished both songs. I reciprocated all those feelings of desire, confusion, excitement and more, so I knew how nerve wracking it was to be around the other before we had cleared our intentions. It made me feel so much better and confident with myself.
I obviously forgot about all the other messages that were waiting for me, I hoped they could understand because I had much important matters to take care of at the moment.
"What are you doing?", Camila asked me when I crashed in her shower unannounced.
"Startin' up a fire", I said quoting her song.
She laughed shyly and looked down before asking me what I thought of the songs.
"I love them".
"Yeah?"
"You are amazing", I said putting my hands on her slippery curves.
"What's your favorite?"
"Shameless", I replied as I lowered my head to kiss her neck.
"But did you like the other one?", she asked again.
"Of course. I just like it more when you accept you can't live without me".
"Uh... that's not what I said", she whispered to defend herself.
"It was implicit", I shrugged and she laughed.
"You're an idiot", she smacked my arm.
"Hey, you can't say that of the birthday boy", I complained.
"The birthday boy has been spoiled enough already and it isn't even 10 am", she said.
"It is never enough", I said and looked for her mouth again. She resisted a bit and I ended up leaving wet sloppy kisses all over her face that made her giggle.
"Oh God, I love you", she said while laughing and my world stopped.
We had said "I love you" so many times before but not since we started dating. We knew those words were going to be loaded with much more meaning now so we were being careful. But not anymore apparently.
I stopped kissing her and looked at her face that turned instantly red. Her round big eyes looked even bigger. My heart was about to escape my chest when I took her face in my hands and smiled. I had a tornado inside my stomach making the butterflies go crazy. She looked like she was about to run away too.
"I fucking love you", I whispered and kissed her with everything in me while water cascaded over us. I felt her body relax and give in to the kiss at the time she reached for my hair and stroke it.
She laid her face on my chest when we pulled away and I was a bit self conscious she would listen to my heart hammering inside my chest.
"You beat me", I confessed and she laughed softly before hugging me tighter.
