As I Am (Part 2 of There You'll Be)

What scares you?

(Continued)

Emery was fast asleep within minutes.

"I'm gonna go put her down." Zak whispered to me as he leans in to kiss me.

He gets up and returns minutes later.

He gets back in bed with Grayson laying between us watching another episode of Ghost Adventures.

"Daddy?"

"Yes, Gray?"

"Do you get scared?"

"Of course I do."

"Of what?"

"Well, sometimes I get scared at work with your uncles. I'm scared of snakes and clowns and dolls. I'm scared of losing you and Emery. Of losing Gracie and Mama. What are you scared of bud?"

"Spiders."

"What is Mama scared of?" Zak asked me.

Grayson looked to me.

"I'm scared of earthquakes. I'm scared of spiders.
I'm scared of things ever happening to my babies. I'm scared of ever losing Daddy. I'm scared of birds. I'm scared of being a bad Mama."

"Oh Mommy, you're the best Mommy. Me and Daddy and Gracie and Emwee love you so much. Right, Daddy?"

"Yes we do baby."

"And I love you guys too." I said as I hugged my boys close.

"Well buddy, it's time to go to bed. Someone's birthday is tomorrow." Zak said.

Zak took Grayson to his bed and tucked him in. Gracie slept in Grayson's room every night since he was a baby.
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Zak came back and laid in bed with me.

He shut off the lamp and rolled over to me.

I had broke down to tears when he left the room with Grayson.

I tried so hard to hold in my sobs and shakes.

"Ev? Baby, what's wrong?" Z asked me as he pulled me in in.

"Our little guy is almost three years old and our daughter is 9 months. I just can't believe that. They're so big! Our babies aren't babies anymore."

"I know Ev. I know. But, our Emery is 9 months old now which was the same age Grayson was when we got pregnant again? Please Ev? I just want one more little one?"

I sighed.

"I know. The more I think about it though, I want another too. Just one last time. Could we handle a third child?"

"Pshh...I think you know damn well we could handle a third baby. Evelyn, you're an amazing mother and I wouldn't want anyone else to make and raise babies with. I love you."

I cuddled into my husband and held him close.

"Who'd have thought you'd be so baby hungry, huh? Zak Bagans, daddy of three. What happened to you never wanting any kids or a wife for that matter?"

"Well, it took the right woman to come along. That's for damn sure. Plus, we created the two most incredible children. I wouldn't trade my wifey or our babies for anything."

"You really wanna do this then? Number 3?"

"With you? I'd have a thousand more babies."

"Easy Tiger. We are done after this one, got it?" I said as I found his lips and kissed him in the dark.

Tomorrow is Halloween. My son's birthday and my husband's favorite holiday.

We are taking Grayson to the museum before it opens and then Nancy is taking the kids trick or treating while we film GA Live.

It's going to be a busy day tomorrow but I can't wait!