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Personal Imagine

Personal imagine for @bradyn124
Hope you liked it hun :)

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it hurt but i had to. it helps me. after five cuts, i stopped and washed my arm along with the blood that was all over the floor under where i was sitting. i washed everything so it looked like nothing really happened. when i was done i wrapped a bandage around my arm. when i was done i walked out and as i was about to go to my mine and my boyfriend, Michaels room, someone pushed me to the wall. "Why. just why" his thick australian accent said as tears streamed down his gorgeous pale face. i felt my eyes water so i looked down. "dont, just answear. WHY" he said now yelling. i flinched. he took a deep shaky breath and sighed. "it helps me. helps me forget the world and the pain is just..amazing.'" i shakily said. he sighed. "goddamn it! why did'nt you tell me!? how long has it been going? how long have you been doing this and i was never there to kiss away the pain. how long?!" he said. a tear fell from my right eye as i looked down in ashame. "2 years" i mumled. he hit the wall and ran his fingers trough his red hair. "fuck fuck fuck fuck how could i be so damn stupid to not notice!" he said and fell on his knees crying. he was rocking back and forth with his hands still on his hair. "im sorry. so god damn sorry." he cried and started to sob. i felt gulity. its my fault he is sad. its my fault he is crying right in front of the freak so called me. its all my fault. "no im sorry michael. im sorry i was an idiot that didnt think of talking with someone about it instead of hurting me. im so sorry" i sobbed. he stood up and pulled me in to a tight hug. "please, just please promies me you will come and talk to me about what's bothering you instead of hurting your beautiful arm. i love you so much. your mum loves you. your dad loves you. your whole family loves you. the boys adores and loves you. half of the fam loves you. its just the jelouse bitches left. they're just sad because they don't have the same heart and personality as you. jelouse cause you're perfect. jelouse cause i have a special place in your heart. i love you." he said and kissed me. the kiss was full of mixed feelings but the strongest one was love. "í promies to never hurt your heart because of my dumb thought, ever again" i said as we pulled back. he was truly a gentleman that im lucky to have in my life and hopefully forever. ❤️