Nothing but the Truth

Part 29 "You Hate Me Because I'm Honest"

No one likes seeing their ex Boy/Girl friend it like when you see them your eyes want to well up with tears, your bottom lip wants to drop out, your heart in the middle of your chest sinking and you feel sick as fuck. A weekend ago my ex Josh came to my house my mum said I had a visitor at the door. I knew kind of instantly who it was I opened the door and just sat outside my house and spoke to him. But what came next was the worst experience ever he began to try and kiss me (I am with Dazza yes) I told him I said I'm with Dazza and that he shouldn't try anything like that with me I won't go into gory details of what happened because I will too upset. After that night I never saw him again up until January 19th. I saw Dazza and another one of my lad friends talking to someone I got to the bottom of the corridor and saw it was Josh I was fuming "hi Shayleigh" said Josh my eyebrows a frown I couldn't think straight I was so angry "Fuck Off!" I shouted and went down the escalator at College Dazza following me along with Josh and my other lad mate I was still fuming I didn't want to cry not in front of Dazza. Dazza did manage to sit me down and talk to me "babe he's a knobhead who deserves his teeth kicked in" said Dazza "how dare he do what he did to me? How dare he come to my house?" I said I was on my phone looking through pictures of me and Dazza and just trying to calm down. While I was sat there I put my hand on my heart it wasn't beating at it's normal rate it was like it was saying "BOOM,BOOM,BOOM!" it was almost like having a panic attack.I went up to the fourth floor and just tried to calm myself down that didn't work so I took a walk (without Dazza) Josh passed me "you hate me cos I'm honest" I said "no I don't" said Josh "will you just let me explain?" "yeah okay I'm gonna believe your lies and I won't be listening" I said semi quiet "Look I don't hate you cos your honest I hate that what you said that I don't know how to love someone" said Josh (I told him through a facebook message that he didn't know what love is through my anger and honesty but then again due to the fact that he cheated on me.) "when I do know how to love someone so can we forget about this and be friends" "just leave me alone, leave Dazza alone and just understand that you've done the damage here and not me" I said I walked off and sat back down this time mascara and eyeliner tear drops but I knew what I had said was true and no one could fight it. The thing is it's that no matter how plain and simple a woman might be if truth and honesty is written across her face she's beautiful. Also I can't thank Dazza enough for that day cos Dazza was the one who kept me together the only person I let in on my thoughts, feelings, emotions and can be so understanding.