Nothing but the Truth

Part 13 Judgement, Criticism The firework that is Shayleigh

This part of the story is well not really anything but a speech and I think it's one that's gonna crush your heart.

First of all when I was in mainstream education for 5 years of my life and for some reason I was so different for the autism and I felt so alone. I know I moved from that school in 2008 to go to Stonehill which wasn't that good I got more critcism there then I did being in mainstream everybody hated me well that's what I thought and in a way it was kind of true there was a few reason why people hated me and I thought at first cos coming from a mainstream I can't hold a pen properly due to cerebral palsy, I had people that did my work for me. But going to Stonehill made me feel fat and ugly compared to other girls my self esteem was so low that's the reason why I hated myself for so long and it's like that N-Dubz song Secrets "today is a day where i'm gonna tell just a little bout myself all of these haters they dont understand me they can't touch the pain I felt I wish I could show them all of my secrets then they might see through me but if I show my secrets or expose my weakness I could let em tear through me" and I now realise that they were jealous of the nice person that is me and that's why they wanted to break me down because they hated themselves and I know they say that "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can't hurt me" that is such a massive lie words can hurt why did Demi Lovato go anorexic? Because words have an impact on people and it's not nice how people can be so horrible and hurtful and just plain judgemental it's not right this world is just a screwed up mess and now I know in my heart that I'm beautiful inside and out even though I don't really believe it but what I do think about when I think of me is three different things fireworks The beauty of me, a tiger the bravery of me and a heart the loving, caring and emotional person I am. There's more behind closed doors and if you are to look me in the eyes you will see all of my traits. This has been the most inspirational thing I've wrote and I'm so proud of myself the person I am, the ambition I've got, who I want to be and what I want to create.