Nothing but the Truth

Part 43 The End

Now I know what you're thinking the end what do you mean the end? The end of this book? Your very wrong this is about the end of me and my relationship with Darian now yes I'm still broke up about it but I'm still trying to move on but at some points I don't wanna move on... Now if you remember from page 40 and 41 we were all over each other and all through the summer I couldn't help but think about him and only him alone and after the last day I saw him and I saw that his first day back at college was the 8th of September Tuesday I thought to myself I have an idea and that was that I was gonna come in and see Darian at lunch time and have a catch up. On the 8th of September I was at college for 11:45 or something like that and I stood by the escalator as soon as I saw one of the girls from Darian's class I thought "come on bring on Darian" and I kept repeating that over quietly then when I saw him my face just lit up he literally went down the escalator so quickly (I've never seen the kid move so quickly in his life) and as soon as Dazza was at the bottom of the escalator it was the moment I think we'd both been waiting for he wrapped his arms round me "when did you get your nose pierced?!" Dazza asked me I just chuckled as I said "my birthday in August" and straight away we just kissed it was like that scene in breakfast at tiffanys or a Cinderella story you know those moments in movies with those victory kisses. At lunch me and him had such a good time together we were back with a boom and I felt like nothing could spoil this bubble but I'll talk about that later. That day at lunch we talked about my birthday, we took selfies, kissed just all over each other. On break we were on YouTube watching Harry Enfield and Chums and we were laughing like mad heads and it was just such a good day. My first day back at college was a joke Darian was being a cock he treat me like shit so I got angry one of the lads tried to sort things out for us when I went back outside we had a massive row and I called his sister a horse toothed ugly pathetic slag (and let's just say I have no remorse whatsoever for saying that cos well it's pretty much true) on the ninth of September we broke up he still wants to be friends and that does scare me cos what if we got that close again but no he'll always live by his sisters rules and nothing will change... There's a beautifully sad quote from a film I once watched:
You can't hold on to anybody that you can only love what you've got while you've got it
To be honest I wish it didn't have to be this way but I do think things could get better and I'm not gonna give up not now not ever. And to be honest I don't really want to see his face again I don't wanna go to college I am trying to push myself but I don't and I mean don't wanna go back to college and find out he's got a new girlfriend and have him rub it in my face cos I wouldn't just wanna batter him I'd wanna batter the last he was with but I can't do that cos I'm not gonna be allowed anywhere because he's gotta stay the fuck away from me and I've gotta stay the fuck away from me. I still like him he'll always be a big part of my life he was my longest relationship but with his problems and my problems there's no way we'll ever look at each other the same I'd be lying if I said I don't wanna be with him but the truth is its that I do care about him and do still wanna be with him but with his evil sister he'll forever be brainwashed by her. And I can't love Darian the way I used to I guess it's time that I need to let go cos I don't wanna be beating myself up because of him and our past cos it's still a big part of my life...💔 RIP DnS Infinity the greatest little infinity I ever had...💙