Nothing but the Truth

Part 38 Bad day

I can do anything but some stuff I keep down but some days I just can't. On the 7th of May I've had a bust up with Darian and it was over how after the party he was drunk and didn't give a crap about me when I was sat crying my eyes out, also about how I felt like his family don't like me and how one of the lasses in his class thinks she's prettier than me and I was really shouting at Darian but I managed to turn my head round and walk (or in other terms storm off) after I did I had Darian, the bitchy girl in Darians class and one of the boys from Darians class "calm down girl" said the lad I wasn't in the mood at all to calm down until the leader of my course came out and got me to calm down. Basically I was sat in one of the time out rooms and I was speaking to her saying that I felt his sister didn't like me and that I don't want to be like I was in previous relationships. It took me a while to calm down I went into class did some work. Comes to break time and I get depressed all because off it I went down stairs and told three lasses in my class that if Darians looking for me to see me down stairs. I got down stairs and I text Sophie asking her if she was in college cos I was desperate to speak to somebody who I knew I could trust. Darian came down stairs asking if I was alright I rolled my eyes and just said "yeah in a way" after that I was wanting to speak with Darian and sort things out but he went to get a coffee instead of sort things with me so I went over to the bitchy lass in Darians class and said and/or shouted "I'm not being funny right but if he cares about me he'd come over to me and SORT THIS OUT!" the bitchy lass in Darians class said "oh I'm always getting involved in relationship issues" so I pretty much had another go saying "Who asked you to why don't you just keep out of this and let me and Darian sort this out for ourselves" one of the LSAs took me upstairs and the leader of our course brought Darian up stairs but before that I was listening to With you Chris Brown and I was just in tears and it's like every single time I listen to it I think of Darian. When Darian came into the room we basically got to the root of what the issue was and I remember Darian saying to me and this broke my heart "I mean this now from the bottom of my heart I love you I do I really do I know we've had ups and downs but you've always been there for me and I'll always be there to help you when you need me and I know I used to flirt with other lasses but ever since getting with you I don't want that only you" all it felt like was my heart had was like ice melting into a puddle just the fact that I felt it all come from the heart I felt every word. But to be honest I needed to get what I felt off my chest I can't get over but I will eventually cos at the moment I'd like to make a statement from the heart: he means the world to me and I do love him unconditionally I know I've only known Darian from being 15 nearly 16 when we first met. I know that he's the one for me and I don't know much about love but neither do a lot of people but all I really know is that the way I feel when I'm with Darian is that I've never felt like this before about anyone. I know I don't tell him that I love him 24/7 but I mean this with everything in my heart I'm in love with him and have been ever since that day he told me he liked me back one of the cold days back in 2013 he's all I've ever known and without him I'd just feel lost he is my everything and our little infinity there's nothing like it in the whole world.