make me

35-Uno

I felt a tear run down my cheek, imagining what Raven must have felt. Losing a loved one is really hard, i mean, I lost my failure of parents and still felt sad, so I could only imagine what it was like losing someone you actually cared for.

The day continued, me and Anastasia talked a lot. She kept asking questions about me, but compared to her I had nothing to talk about, I hadn't live for hundreds of years after all. I learned that she's bisexual, leaning more towards girls and I came to the conclusion that it's probably the norm in the vampire world to be gay.

Ana suggested that we watch a movie, but with my concussion I had to refuse. We decided to play uno since it doesn't take a lot of brain effort. We got the cards and sat down.

"I'm gonna destroy you at this game!" Ana said dramatically evil while shuffling the cards.

"No, you won't. I've been playing this game since I was a baby.  I don't like to lose either, so watch out!" I replied back even more dramatically.

She smirked at me, then separated the cards into three piles  so we both had a small one of 15 cards. We chose to have more cards at the beginning, because we both agreed we would beat the other person in a matter of seconds.

"Ok, you start. You will need the head start..." she looked up from her cards, trying not to laugh at my serious expression.

"Ok, then, but you'll regret it." I put down a green 4, then looked back at her. "Is this to much for you, yet?" I asked her mockingly. She glared at me and put down a green 1, then 3 other ones, finishing with a red card. My eyes grew open as I really realized I had to get my skills out.

"Is this to much for you?" She repeated back to me, smirking.

"Oh no, this helps actually." I smiled and put a red 6 and two more, ending with a green card. Anastasia then placed a +2 card on the table, looking back up to me. I smiled at her and put another +2 on it, her eyebrows scrunched and she put down another +2. I laughed a bit and put a +4 card, looking out for her next move, she sighed and began taking the 10 cards from the bigger pile resting on the side. I laughed at her while she finished placing everything in her hands, barely fitting them all considering her small figure.

"I won't let you get away with this..." she said her eyes getting a deeper shade of pink. Automatically, I backed away, remembering what happens after Raven's eyes darken. Seeing I was lost in my bad thoughts, Ana shook my arm a little bit, bringing me back to where we were in the game.

"Hey, I don't know exactly what Raven did to you, but I don't want you to be stressed when you're around me, okay? I won't ever hurt you, i'll even go out of my way to protect you, so try remembering it, at least." She smiled softly while stroking my arm gently.

"Thank you Ana, I just get lost sometimes, I know you won't hurt me, but I still remember bad events when something triggers it... just know that I don't think anything bad of you and I don't think you'll hurt me, I just remember bad things." I said trying to shrug it off as quickly as possible. To change the subject, I put down a yellow card and looked back at her.

"Could you tell me what triggers you?" She asked me, completely ignoring my attempt at hiding my emotions.

"Well, I don't really know them all, but the ones I'm sure about are when vampire eyes become darker, blood (especially on me), when I'm alone in a room with people I don't know, maybe parties... and aggression signs in general, but you don't have to go out of your way just to accommodate me, I'm fine, really." I said, smiling softly at her.

"No, that's a lie. You're not okay. You need time to heal, but so does Raven and that's where it clashes. You're getting worst, because Raven decided to buy you before she was healed. She probably thought having someone new would make her forget, but truth is, having someone new just makes you remember what you've lost..." she looked down at her cards and placed one on the table. I did the same after her and so on, continuing the game while talking.

"But it's too late now... she already bought me and I think she's already attached, and honestly, I think I am too." I said looking at her with a bit of regret.

"Yeah, I know. That's why it's complicated now, but if she loves you, she'll change... but remember, thought, Raven also has triggers and she reacts differently to them. You react by just getting lost, reliving the moment, because you were in a victim's position, but she reacts by violence, because she saw the girl she loved the most get killed. When Elizabeth got murdered, Raven did everything she could to keep her alive and even proposed giving her own life in exchange of the life of 'Liz. So if you do something that makes her think of her past love, her reaction will be violence, she'll get lost in her memories and she'll try to "save Elizabeth" by trying to kill you. At that moment, she'll blame you for her death. Trust me on this, I have seen it happen multiple times." She looked really serious and she made sure I had understood everything she had just explained.

"But how do I know what triggers her? I never met Elizabeth, how could I avoid acting like her?" I was a bit in distress, because we were discussing my life at that moment.

"I don't know, honestly... truth is, Raven probably chose you, because you looked like her or because you acted like her. So it would be hard to change your whole personality... I guess just be careful." She smiled at me and put down her last card, leaving me with three.

"Yeah, I guess i'll just be careful..." I replied smiling, trying to hide my real emotions. I knew I couldn't just be careful, I already was careful and looked where it got me, it was a much deeper problem and I had to confront Raven about it one day, that was the scary part.