make me

13-broken

This is going to be so fun i thought to myself while smirking.

I sat down on the shower floor and looked up to her. "Changed your mind?" I asked.

She didn't answer so I took that as my cue to start playing with myself. I began rubbing my clit slowly making me close my eyes but I opened them every once in a while to make sure she was still matching and she was.

I started going down to meet my hole and teased myself. She looked at me more serious this time, so I think she doesn't like the idea of me pleasing myself.

I looked at her in the eyes and went in. I saw that she clenched her jaw and soon enough she was in front of me ripping my hand away from my body.

She pinned my hands above my head and gave me a stern look. "I'm sure you wouldn't want what happened today again am I right? So just a little tip, obey me or I will fucking break you to pieces until you don't even remember what it's like being free..." she lat go of my hands and went underneath the water once again.

I could feel tears creep up and the haze go away. I crunched myself in the corner and waited for instructions while I was starting to cry.

I really wanted this to stop and I knew what I had to do but I still had dignity I couldn't just let her have it. I just wanted to be alone and free again.

My thoughts were interrupted by Raven slowly touching my arm. She gently pulled me up on my feet and brought me to the water. She washed my hair and applied conditionner.

I was just standing there letting her do whatever she pleased and when she finished washing my body and my hair she turned me around to face her and gave me a kiss. I didn't give it back.

She went out the shower grabbed towels and gave me one. I took it and dried myself but, then I had no clothes to wear and it made me cry even more. I don't even know if it was considered crying tho... because, everything was silent. Tears were coming down my face but nothing else was seen or felt except the hurting.

"Would you want to sleep in my bed with me tonight?" Raven asked.

"N-no I want to be alone."

"Well honestly that wasn't a question, you're gonna come in my bed. We won't do anything I promise and I'll make you hot chocolate with marshmallows..." she said trying to pique my interest but, it didn't work.

I rolled my eyes and followed her out of the bathroom and into her room. I haven't seen it at all since I came here so I was kinda curious as to what the personal space of a monster would look like. And to no surprise everything was black and white.

I thought it should've been red because of all the blood she takes and how much she killed but I just hate her... at least I think. I really don't want to get that Stockholm syndrome bullshit but, it seemed like it was a probability.

When Raven looked at me and saw that I was 'wearing' a towel because I didn't have any clothes, she went to her drawers and gave me a silk pijama. It consisted of black shorts and a black bralette. I took it and dressed in front of her. She had already seen everything and I was to tired and depressed to even care.

"Go sit on the bed I'll go and prepare you food and a hot chocolate... oh, and here," she have me a remote control and pointing to a TV, " you can watch TV if you want." she said as she got out of the room not bothering locking the door or even closing it.

I looked at the remote and back at the hallway outside of the room and thought about escaping but, I remembered what Raven had told me dinner in the evening. "well you don't really have a home then, do you little bug?" The words kept replaying in my head as I realized they were true. I have no where to go even if I did manage to escape.

A silent tear went down my cheek, was I really going to stay here forever and even worst... will Raven turn me and keep me forever ever? All sorts of questions went through my head when I realized I was doomed one way or the other. Even if I did become a vampire, Raven would be a thousand times more powerful than me.

I was completely spaced out when I heard Raven come up to me and gave me a bowl of ramen. She then placed the mug containing hot chocolat beside me on the end table.

"You ok there? Looking kinda deep in your thoughts..." she said glancing at me while she was on her way to the other side of the bed.

"Yeah, I was just thinking..." I answered hesitantly.

"Mind telling me what you were thinking about, my little bunny?" She raised a brow at me.

"I-I... are you really going to keep me forever?" I said with tears in my eyes.

"Mm... well first of all I haven't decided yet and second, of course I would want to keep you forever... you're so fun to play with darling." She chuckled and turned to change the channels on the tv.

Did she really like being mean this much... she wanted to do this forever. I started thinking about all the pain she made me go through and couldn't even imagine living it as my DAILY LIFE.

I had to get out, I had to find a way to be free. Even if it meant that I had to die. Think, think, THI-

"Honey what do you want to watch?"

"I don't know... anything you want." I answered looking numbly at the covers covering my thighs.

"Ok... well how about a scary movie?"

I shook my head in approval but then felt her hand gently grab my chin and pulling it upward. She looked into my eyes and then kissed me passionately.
She braided her fingers in my hair and pulled at it slightly.

I gave in... i let her do whatever she pleased without even trying to reject her.

Raven broke the kiss and whispered, "broken." She smiled and went back to watching the tv.

I could feel every emotions in my body at that moment...rage, sadness, desperation, heartbroken. Something had broken inside me, she was right and that was the worst part of it.