Infinite love... (Neymar fanfiction)

Chapter 9 - flashback IX

"Cia I'm so... ." I interrupted him. 

"No, Ney I don't want to hear anything. Today you just stay quiet and listen to me... You don't need to tell me sorry for what happened earlier it's your life do what you want it. But what hurts me is that I'm none to you anymore. You were the one to call me if anything happened even at 4 but seems like you have forgotten that already. Try remembering how we were once and look at us now. I'm not angry because you weren't there for me all the time. All I wanted was just a little time in your super busy life. I know you're a great footballer and you're too famous and busy and stuff but you had to find some time for me. And from the last few months where were you when I needed my best friend? You drifted apart and frankly, I didn't mind that at first cause we can't always stick together but now I have realized that I had no meaning and value in your life. I have been okay with this behavior of yours for a while now but not anymore. I don't wanna be your friend anymore. When it does not matter to you whether I'm there or not then why put a sticker in my head that reads Ney's best friend? Don't try to contact me or call me or message me. Don't try to come in front of me. Going back to England was the best decision I made. It's over Neymar. We're no more friends." I said to him.

"Ciara!!! Ciara!!! Please listen to me. Please for god sake... " I didn't let him talk at all.

"I have to go." I ended the call.

I cried myself to sleep that night. The next morning I had to leave Rafa and everyone came to the airport to see me off but Ney was not there. I hugged everyone. "Come back soon. I'm gonna miss you" Rafa hugged me last.

I went inside to board my plane and after a while, the plane took off. Here is the end of my life in Brazil to all those memories and to our friendship Neymar, I said to myself. But I couldn't forget about Ney I always went through his Instagram, Twitter, and stuff, and watched his every match. When he signed with Barcelona I was really happy because I knew it was his dream to play alongside Messi.

Those times still are fresh in my mind as if they happened yesterday but that was a long ago more than 3 years. I kept the album aside and went to bed. Tomorrow I'm gonna meet Rafa, hope she forgives me for not coming in between in all these years. Then I went to sleep. It really felt good to be back.

Till now I wrote only from Ciara's side. Now I'm writing the story from Neymar's side. 

I had been packing for the last two hours and I was done finally. I was leaving for Brazil tomorrow. I hope Cia comes home this time; it's been 3 yrs since I met her. I really miss her a lot. But I was stupid that I never told them what I felt for her and what I still do. It was all my fault. I remember the day I first saw her jogging in the park, and when I finally met her at her house she was looking beautiful in that floral dress. It didn't take me time to fall in love with her but I was afraid to tell her too afraid that I stayed in her life as a best friend.

That day when Maria said those harsh things to her I wanted to slap her but it would have created a problem afterward when I shouted at her she told me to chose, without thinking a second I chose Cia how could I let go of her when she was the best part of my life. The same night I messaged her saying "I love you best friend" but I didn't want it to be that way I wanted it to say "I love you, sweetheart." Still, I was flattered to get a reply from her.

On the day of her birthday instead of a locket I wanted to give her a ring but I was too afraid and those NeyCia I wanted that to mean more than best friend but I was too stupid to hide it. The way Oscar used to look at her I knew he had feelings for her and I felt so jealous to see them together. I thought she will never love me back so I started staying away from her, I started going out with Kathleen. On our Hawaii trip when Oscar said that she was his girl my heart sank I couldn't hold back my tears but I faked a smile. When I asked her what was all that about she told exactly the words I wanted to hear from her for me but it wasn't for me it was for Oscar.

I was just sitting alone on the beach when I heard Rafa and Cia argue about Cia going to England. Why was she going away?? What will I do if she leaves?? I couldn't imagine life without Cia's presence. Finally, when I got a chance to talk to her she told me some stuff that I didn't understand at all.

After coming back she almost completely ignored me and I couldn't face her, I couldn't hide my feelings anymore. On her last day I asked her to come home but all of a sudden Kathleen showed up and I was in the shower I didn't know what she was doing outside when I came out I was shocked to see her in a towel and Cia was at the door with tears in her eyes. Before I could say anything she ran. I quickly got dressed and ran after her but I had no idea where she went,  I kept calling her but she didn't receive my calls. I was worried to death. Finally, she called me and said that we were no longer friends and she was done with us. She didn't even hear me out and disconnected the call. Why was this happening? I couldn't lose her. I cried that whole night. My eyes felt heavy it was burning like anything, I didn't even know when I fell asleep. 

The next day I woke up, I saw that I was already late, I tried getting to the airport as fast as I could but I was too late, the plane had taken off already I drove back home and went to room " I lost Cia the love of my life" I cried my heart out. I tried reaching her but she didn't wanted to talk to me. I asked Oscar why he let her go. He told me the truth day that there was nothing going on between them he was just defending her and she left because a guy broke her heart and said that I should know who. I tried asking Rafa for her number but even she denied it. What did they know that I didn't? Why are they not helping me get her?

I asked Rafa many times but all she said was it was my fault. When I signed with Barcelona she was the first one I wanted to tell her, she always wanted to see me in Barcelona jersey. Even though it was unexpected when I had Davi I wanted to tell her to show her his picture. I wanted her to be beside me in every moment sad or happy or sorrow. She was everything I wanted. I wish to see her, and have her back in my life. Well, leave it up to God now. I should sleep now.