We've all been here.

Goodbye 2020

2020 is ending and I'm still like this. Is there anything really to look forward to in 2021? Will it ever really change? Is that year gonna be as miserable? Well let's talk about it here.

Well I can't tell how your year has been going so far, but I hope it's better than mine. I've got work tomorrow and I've got plans to watch the New Year Sunrise. Now you may be asking what's so special about it. Well, for me at least, whenever I look at the New Year Sunrise I get flashbacks of all the good things that's happened to me so far in my year. I at least want to remember the good things instead of always being a lonely dump. If there's anything I could change for my year it would probably be nothing if I'm being honest. All this stuff is gonna be a big help to me in the future especially when I had my hard times. Those times pushed me to my limits and made a more mature person than I was before. I do regret not being able to live my childhood, but that's all in the past. Wallowing in self-pity won't do anyone good, especially if you're in the one doing it. Trust me because I learned the hard way.

Let's be honest, all that New Year's Resolution talk is crap. Instead let's do something different here. Instead of saying I'm gonna do this and not do that. I'm gonna be frank here, stop thinking that you're like this, that, ect. You got a problem with yourself, then confront it, don't run away. I'm not being judgmental, I'm speaking from experience. I'm doing it, but I'm having a hard time doing too. Change isn't always easy I know. Even if there are times when I wish I had never met my dad that dosen't change the fact that he is still my father. I have to respect him no matter what because that's my job as his son. Look, I know there are times when we want to just cry and scream, but sometimes we need man up or woman up, and I don't mean holding it all in. It means giving it all to God. Don't give your problems then worry about it. God will help you, but you need to put in effort. Don't let your problems be. Standing there and doing nothing, but cry about it won't get you anywhere except down. 

Remember what I said in the first part of this book? "Don't get mad at God." You wanna know why? Because He never did anything wrong. God isn't the cause of my problems, if anything it's me who did this to myself. Don't blame God for something bad you did or someone did to you. Get one thing straight, our enemy isn't satan, because it already mentions in the Bible God already defeated him and He gave us the power to overcome the world. That means the real enemy is ourselves. If you believe God and the Bible then you know what I'm saying is true, and if you don't, I recommend you do. Just remember "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven." -Ecclesiastes 3:1