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The Three Obstacles

Self-Confidence is something I don't really have in me. First, my parents think very little of and second, I don't like myself too much. I doubt myself because of my fear of inadequacy. I fear that whatever I do won't ever be enough. I know that the best way to have self-confidence is have some belief in yourself. There are times when my self-confidence kicks up in situations I need it the most, but for now I'm still trying my best to boost my confidence by working hard.

Courteous is something I try to be. I admit I can be disrespectful sometimes because of my problem with authority. I was worse before, but now I can follow authority without problems the only thing that gets the best sometimes is my anger. I admit that I shouldn't put my anger on others and give it to God and that's what I'm trying to do. It's no easy task, but I do my best, even if it means little by little.

Being honest is one of my key weaknesses. I can't do it all the time and I regret not being honest all the time. I admit that my lying hasn't gotten me anywhere except down and I won't make my excuses for my dishonesty, I will just explain why I was and am dishonest. I am dishonest most of the time to my family because to them accomplishments and education is everything so why would they give a care about my personal life. Every time I tell them I'm behind on schedule or doing bad in grades they will not stop being angry or disappointed in me. I understand it was my fault I fell behind and did bad on some tests, but the pain of their words and them having to react to everything I do is what led to me lying. I never liked lying to people except my family other than that I am honest to most people outside my family. To my family crying or being depressed is something that can happen to me because I'm too young or because I have no Idea how it feels, but to be honest having to work every day, giving up school for my father, being someone they want and not myself can really take a toll. I say this not because I want you to pity me, but because I want to be honest with myself and to others about myself for once. I am not always honest, but I do my best to be honest as much as possible.