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All I Want for Christmas

Now that we're past all that sad stuff let me at least get to something less depressing. Now you see I've always wanted many things for Christmas, but now I just want one thing for this Christmas. What about you what do you want for Christmas?

Anyways let's get on with it shall we? Now, you see every Christmas and New Year I've always watched the sunrise and sunset. I've been doing this alone, you see where I'm going with this? All I want for Christmas is somebody who will watch the sunrise and sunset on Christmas and New Year. It may sound stupid, but that's all I want for Christmas. If you don't understand let me tell you why then.

Now you see being lonely and depressed at 3:00 am in the morning is exhausting enough as it is especially on Christmas and New Year. Now if you're gonna tell me to just go out and try to spend Christmas with my friends well then you're in for a surprise. You see even before Covid-19 my family would always scold me for even asking if I could spend time with my friends especially on Christmas. Every single time I say I was just out with my friends hat's why I'm late, a.k.a. around 5:00 pm or so. Now you see I want to be able to this with someone on Christmas and New Year. I don't care even if it's just a vc, that's more than enough for me.

I would reach out to my friends, but they said they're gonna be busy for the holidays with family. Now I have no problem with that, in fact I'm happy for them they get to experience the true meaning of family. I just want to feel like I'm not lonely for once, even if they aren't here with physically. I've got three views on each of my parts and it's probably just you, but if you are one of my other friends, you probably never saw this side of me, that's cause I'm only like this here. I have a hard time expressing my feelings verbally. The only two ways I can express my emotions better are in the forms of writing and boxing. Remember, I'm not doing this make anyone feel guilty, none of this ever your fault guys. This is something I have to deal with, just remember I may not be okay today, but today isn't forever, I'll be okay again tomorrow. :)