We've all been here.

HARD TO ACCEPT

Now before we get into this journey of sadness and pain, please don't blame God for any of your past and present experiences okay? Because if you are please don't read this whoever you are. Otherwise you will just curse yourself and make your life even more miserable than it has ever has been trust me I know and bad luck didn't cause it because it isn't real.

It's awkward when you have to get over someone you didn't date .... If I'm being honest with myself I could choose to move on and trust me I have chose that option so many times. Took me quite some time and a years ' worth of music. To be honest the only reason why I feel so lonely all the time is because I keep choosing to feel this way without doing it on purpose I'm sure we can all relate to this. I could've chosen to be happy a long time ago by doing what I was supposed to do and not wasting my energy on something I shouldn't be thinking about at the time, not that there's anything wrong with her. She was already a good example to follow, it's just me who messed up my life. 

Often we see in most romance-drama movies there's always that one person who causes our protagonist the worst time of his/her life and always due to a lack of effort by either none, one, or both of them to make the relationship work. If you don't believe me ask my ex, don't worry it's not the girl I mentioned in the first sentence we could never happen in the first place.

Now I'm going to state the obvious, but just to be sure I'll remind you that every choice has consequences kapeesh? You probably gonna scroll or swipe away on this part, but please don't. I just want you to really make sure you want to read this because you're probably gonna remember some bad moments in your life as you read this if you haven't already and don't worry this isn't all about relationship problems and being sad and angry about it. I'll give you some advice along the way. My first piece of advice? Take away all that anger and resentment you've been keeping in there. I know it's easier said than done and that almost everyone has told you this piece of advice, but it's a really an effective and great piece of advice. 

"I see all these people that love me, but I still feel alone."  Sound familiar to you? It's great song by Rex Orange Country called "Best Friend." Anyways back to the topic. That quote really hits me hard wanna know why? Because I want to be with the person I want so much instead of wanting to be around the ones I need I neglect them and focus on that one person so badly. In other words I'm just being selfish. 

Now this is where my second piece of advice comes in. What you want isn't always what you need. think about it for a second and take a good look at yourself. I know what I'm about to say is gonna hurt so please understand I'm doing my best to give advice. If you want that person so bad that you hurt , neglect, and push away others on purpose just to be with him/her then stop while you can, because once you start you're just going to keep hurting those around you including yourself, and eventually him/her. In other words self control.