Whether you support me or not I don't care, is what I wish I could say. The fact that you said that you don't support me going to school and don't support my stand made me care even more. I don't hate you, I'm just wondering why you don't love me. Why'd you say you care about me only to show me that you don't. Why'd you call yourself a father only to be one for your first family but not to me. I'm not complaining, I'm just hurt. My heart is full of pain but I'm numb. I don't know how to feel, I don't know why you feel like that towards me.
I am not your enemy, I'm just someone who needs to be rescued from all of this pain, depression, and loneliness. I don't see people as the enemy even if they cross the line. They just need to be rescued and reminded of God's love, that what parents do right? But how come you remind me of my failures and mess ups. I'm sorry if my existence messed up your life, I didn't want that. When I'm up late at night it's not because I wanna piss you off, it's because I'm busy fighting my thoughts and this feeling being useless. I push myself because you won't, I have to encourage myself because you won't. I HAVE TO PARENT MYSELF BECAUSE YOU WON'T. Yes I have support from those close to me, yes they love me, and yes they're not my own flesh and blood. But they're not here to see me 24/7 they have their own families and responsibilities. But why am I just an obligation to you and not a son. Yes, I'm thankful for all God has done, but you don't seem to be thankful for me. My mind is confused and my heart is weak. But here I stand, whether you care for me or not, I'll always care for you as God has always done for me and you.
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RastgeleWe've all been here, but have really accepted the situation and did something to change it instead of eating junk food and spoiling ourselves with self-pity? Follow me as I do my best give you advice on these things. Now I may not be your psychiatri...
