We've all been here.

Martha

Woy lover-girl, what's happening? You remind me a lot about my younger-self. You would think how is that possible especially when I'm a very different guy now, but I just used to be like you. I was always jealous of people, relationships, friends, and love... All I can say is learn to go against yourself. It is never a good idea to listen to your selfish desires. Why? I know this from firsthand experience. I thought what I wanted was love, but I just wanted someone for myself which is being selfish. Love is being selfless, not selfish. I've learned this ever since I went back to God. There is where I found true love. It's not some magical prayer, it's not a rosary, it's not something that you have to find. God has always been there and always will be, "Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee" Hebrews 13:5 KJV. I'm not exactly the best example of a Christian, but that's what I try to be. Also if you're wondering why I know so much about love and deep and what most people think are complicated about it. Well, that's because of my relationship with God. What most people think is that it is mandatory to go to church, do this, do that so God loves you more, that's wrong. What God wants is a personal relationship with you, but you have to be willing to really let Him in your life and you will be able to change for the best. This is what I've learned as the years went by.

Love above all else. Para kanino ka bumabangon? Familiar topic? For sure yeah, but let's go more in-depth. You see everyone wants to experience love, either to love or be loved. But people cheat, people lie, and hearts get broken. Where can we truly experience love? Well, love is best experienced firsthand. "Dear friends, let us continue to love one another, for love comes from God. Anyone who loves is a child of God and knows God. But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love.: 1 John 4:7-8 NLT. "In the beginning the Word already existed. The Word was with God, and the Word was God." John 1:1 NLT. You see the beginning why God created us with free will is because He loves us. God is not the one who brings pain, if God didn't love us then we would all be destroyed knowing how many times we disobeyed Him. But let me ask you, have you experienced God's love firsthand? Have you experienced true love? True love isn't that romantic love everyone knows. Words can't describe how much God loves us. "But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners." Romans 5:8 NLT. You see we don't have to work harder for God to love us. Why? Because He already loves us to the absolute maximum, unconditionally. We work harder and read the Bible to know and understand more about His love. We do good works after we've received Him in our lives. Not because we need to do good works to get to heaven or as most people call it "ligtas points." 1 John 5:10 NLT says "This is the message we heard from Jesus and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all. So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God but go on living in spiritual darkness; we are not practicing the truth. But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin. If we claim we have no sin, we are only fooling ourselves and not living in the truth. But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness. If we claim we have not sinned, we are calling God a liar and showing that his word has no place in our hearts." But 1 John 2:5 also says "But those who obey God's word truly show how completely they love him. That is how we know we are living in him." God's love changes us for the best. remember that Romans 8:28 "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." Remember that no matter how broken, how messed up, how depressed you are, I haven't forgotten you. I pray for you Martha, I mean this. I may seem like a tough guy whose just nice, but I'm more than that. I care. I want to care for you even if you won't care, I want to remember to pray for you even you might not remember me, I want to do my best to show you God's love even if you might not want that. I don't care what bad you'll say to me, I know deep down you just need to be shown love, God's love. I don't care how much painful things you might say to me, I care for you're soul you prosperity, you're happiness. This may seem like just a saying but it's not. Why do I care? Because God's cares about you more than you know. One day I hope you come to realize this whether now or in the next years. As long as you're still alive here on this Earth, I hope that one day I will be able to really reach out to you and help you. I'll always keep doing my best to do this. God loves you Marts, never forget that, ever. Ok?