Today is gonna be a good day, don't care what anybody else say, even if my mom is getting old and slowly deteriorating for pas few months and just told me now. I don't care if my dad says my dreams are useless and worthless, "Weirdo, that's useless (because it has nothing to do with him)." Meanwhile my grandma set aside food that was apparently for my dad, and when I saw my food it was almost nothing, but it's something right? Am I being sarcastic? Nah, or maybe? Meh, don't mind me I feel so hyper that I could fly right into the moon and be six-feet under, too dark? Well, I'm in a state of almost breaking down again, but that won't happen (I think). What is it that people find interesting about me? Is it my height, jump, mind, face, or my stupidity to keep going on when my mom who might not last long and the only who can support me. She works so hard for me, but my work and effort isn't even enough. Nothing is ever enough huh? Well, don't mind that it's just the voices trying to break me again. Me? I'll be fine, I have to be I can't not be fine. A lot of things keep me up at night. I barely sleep lol, wake up 9am, work, barely sleep, repeat. Other days "dad" is added into the mix and "family" but who am I to rant or complain? I don't have the right to do that anyway, I'm suppose to be the one helping anyway, I may need help, but I don't deserve it. What I've done, who I was, you would never wanna help me, trust me this is for the best, don't you dare pity me. I hate it when people pity me, but you know what else I hate? Being weak and helpless and unable to help others. Every time I'm too weak to help anyone I feel helpless, every time I'm to weak to do my work and get sick I hate it. I just really hate it. It's nice to think that people will be there, but let's be honest who would help a psycho like me?(◔‿◔) Am I making you uncomfortable? I'm sorry if I am you should probably just leave me, I always make everyone feel uncomfortable when I try to share what the heck has been inside of me. I always move too fast and end up scaring people and start to make them uncomfortable, I just need to take it slow lol. That's what I'll be working on, but for the mean time I'll be dancing my life crisis off with music I vibe to so see ya.
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RandomWe've all been here, but have really accepted the situation and did something to change it instead of eating junk food and spoiling ourselves with self-pity? Follow me as I do my best give you advice on these things. Now I may not be your psychiatri...
