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Happiness

June 13, 2021, This date is important. I found something I won't ever find somewhere else, I found Happiness, I found her. It's been a really long time since I've felt anything like this, and I mean long, like years. So let's start from the beginning. May 30, 2021, I met her in our Google Meet and, there she was and her beautiful face, and eyes, and smile. I said to myself "Well, she's looks nice, nah, she looks gorgeous, wait what?" Yes, I got surprised at what I said, and in my old fashion I tired to get rid of the feeling as soon as possible. The next day the we had another Google meet and she was there again, I said to myself again "Okay you just like her, not love, wait why am I even thinking about this, I never remind myself of this sort of thing. Maybe I do? NO DON'T GET YOUR HOPES UP SHUT UP STOP LOOKING AT HER, PRETEND YOU'RE LOOKING AT MESSENGER WAIT NO, STOP DON'T LOOK AT HER, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO SOMEONE HELP. WHY DO IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME, NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!" So yeah, a big spike in intensity huh? It's been like that until June 7. We started having late night calls just the two of us left. I was able to e actually enjoy and vibe and jam with someone I liked and who was my complete opposite. She gave me happiness I could never explain properly and I thank God for that. So the next seven days would be the happiest days of my life. Each passing day I finally said to myself "I don't want to ever leave her, she's worth it, she's worth risking everything, I want to be with her until my times up." I also said, "I don't want to be only one happy, I want to make her happy, I want to give her that happiness, no much more than what I felt, I want to make sure she never regrets meeting or seeing me, I wan to be there with her as much as possible." I kept telling myself, "August, I'll confess to her on August." Then June 13 came, "Okay, June 30." Later... "I'M GONNA TELL HER WHEN I GET HOME, LORD HELP ME." It's already past 8:30 pm and I still haven't told her, then it became 9:00 pm, I told her to help me tell someone I like them. She didn't hear the first attempt then I asked her if I should call her so I can practice and so I did. "I really, really, really, really really, really, REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY, LIKE, YOU, YUMI." AND SHE SAID I LIKE YOU TOO IN CHAT HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA.

-To be continued