Everyday I haunt myself and make things worse for myself. I keep trying to avoid my problems when I should tackle it. I try to avoid everything even emotions, but it only makes things worse. Lord I know I'm supposed to give my problems and I'm sorry, it's just me, I am unwilling and I can't. Every time I go to sleep I keep entering different worlds of hate, abandonment, unforgiveness, resentment. The fact that I have to deal with me, my problems, the problems within me and now these worlds add to it. No matter how much I drown my tears in the rain and music it won't drown away my problems. I just wish I wasn't me, those 2 years of work never helped me, it only fueled my rage, bitterness, and negativity. If only I took these things more positively and more happily I wouldn't be like this, but the fact is that I couldn't get a break and I whenever I do I can never rest. My thought process is always all around the place wrecking me. I keep wrecking myself, my life, my personality. Everyday I keep becoming something I don't know and it haunts me. Will I ever be myself? Will ever be able to share the secrets of my life that burden and make me suffer everyday I think? Will I ever be to find something to love? Someone to love and love me back? Someone to help me with my suffering so I don't have to suffer alone? I keep hoping for something that I know can never happen yet I hope and that hope keeps killing me and making me regret. Will I ever be able to spend my time with precious people and will that time ever come? Will I ever regret the time I spend in the future? Will I ever stop haunting myself?
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CasualeWe've all been here, but have really accepted the situation and did something to change it instead of eating junk food and spoiling ourselves with self-pity? Follow me as I do my best give you advice on these things. Now I may not be your psychiatri...
