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Chapter 5

A/N: Thank you everyone! i know this chapter is a bit late, sorry. I didn't expect that many votes in such a short time! Here it is! I was really sad while writing this. :(

This chapter is dedicated to my sister; she inspired me to wite this story. I love you sis <3

 Walt's POV

 I can't believe I told her about Mom. The general story was around my parents’ divorce. Everyone except family knew that story. I was still in shock that Nathalie was here. I mean, this couldn't be real right? I felt that panic closing up my throat. I needed to see her again.  Like the Dr. Ayman had said: if you ever need someone to talk to, go see her. It might help you. She is your mother after all. And so, in between fourth and fifth period, I took my car and drove off to the cemetery. I only stopped once: to get flowers for my mom. As my car pulled up in front of the gates I thought about the last time I came here: when Dad and Madeline announced their engagement six months ago. I climbed the stone steps and walked straight till the third last row. Then I turned, walked till I reached the fifth headstone.

Sally Janos

January 1 1972-July 14 2011

“The hour of departure has arrived, and we go our separate ways, I to die, and you to live. Which of these two is better only God knows -Socrates”

My mom knew she wouldn't be able to fight the cancer. Even when I assured her of the best, she would shake her head and say "Walt. My time has come. You can't fight the will of God". Mom was a religious person. That meant we would go to church every Sunday and say prayers before meals and stuff like that. After she died, I stopped. What was the point? The Lord took away what I valued most. I had nothing to be thankful for. A lot of the time Dad wasn't around; he and Madeline would usually be on business trips. Usually, it was just me and the staff.

I lay the flowers and seated myself of the floor. Running my fingers over the name, I began,

"Hi mom... It's been a long time. I've been trying to keep it all together. I guess I'm getting better at it. It's been a year and 2 months since you died. I miss you like crazy. You know Dad takes Madeline everywhere with him. On business trips, parties, she goes everywhere with him. She practically lives in our house. Do you have any idea how irritating it is to find her in the kitchen on weekends? Making coffee and relxing around like she owns the place. You should have seen her criticizing me for my sleeping habits, and for that party I threw over the summer. I don't understand what her problem is. I'm never gonna respect her. Anyways, I don't know what’s happening to Cali. She used to be so normal. I wonder what happened. You’ll never guess what happened today Mom. Guess who I found in school today! Nat! Nathalie! Can you believe it? Me neither. I remember when you told me to forget her. The craziest part is that she's been around for a very long time. She knew all the way that I was Walt from her childhood. I got so mad when I found out she knew. I took her number so we could catch up. I never realized how much I missed her until she was right in front of me. I didn't recognize her at first. But then she made a joke on playing catchers. And suddenly, it was like a light bulb flashed in my head! You should see her Mom. She's so beautiful now. I wonder if it would be weird if I told her I missed her. I mean, I embarrassed her by blurting out the fact that I had no clue who she was. It would freak her out. For some reason, I feel like she isn't telling me something. She kept looking distracted while we were talking in Study Hall today. I'll ask her. I really do miss you Mom. I know I can't have you back. You're gone now. I'll have to deal with it. Why did you leave? I act all grown up, but you of all people know it's a charade. I've been playing that role ever since you and Dad split. I'm not blaming you for it; all I'm saying is that, I need you here. With me. I don't care if I sound like a mummy's boy saying this, but I love you. I know we had arguments and sometimes I said things that hurt you, but you know I never meant them right? Now you're gonna and I have nobody left..." I felt something hot on my face: tears. No! I wouldn't cry. No tears, not tears, I repeated to myself. I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. The caller I'd read 'Lucas'. Clearing my throat, I took his call

"Hello"

"Where are you man? Cali's going ballistic! We're all at lunch, and she's been screaming at people to look for you. Jeez, man! Say something!"

"Hi Lucas" Cali was going ballistic? That's news.

"Not cool bro," I could almost hear him frowning. I laughed.

"Sorry, man. I'm attending to some business. Probably won't come back for the rest of the day. Keep Cali in check, will you? And tell her, I'll call her later."

"Oh. Sure, man, no problem. I have to ask you something though..." By this time I had pressed my fingers across my mom's name again and was walking to my car.

"Shoot,"

"What's the deal with you and Nathalie? She was rushing to meet you in the library, I ran into her, literally. And Cali was screaming at her in the girl’s locker room today. Liz told me," Suddenly, I felt a surge of protectiveness over Nat. Even if I only knew her for a few hours. Cali was shouting at her?

"She's an old friend of mine. We lost touch so we were talking in Study Hall today. What was Cali saying to her?"

"Well, she was screaming that Nat was the last person you were talking too, so she should know where you were. And apparently she told her some mean things too. Liz refused to tell me those. I quote: 'It shouldn't be repeated again'."

"Cali and I need to have a talk. Tell her I'll call her later." Cali was saying things to Nathalie. I really have to sort this out. "Look man, I'll talk to you later. For the party, Skype me okay?"

"Okay man. I'll tell Cali. Go finish whatever you need to finish. Oh Hey! Listen you wanna talk to Nat? She's walking over with Liz now." Should I talk to Nat?  No, I'll talk to her after school. I have her number; I'll call. It's polite.

"I’ll pass. I'll talk to her tomorrow about it."

"We'll plan the party tomorrow okay?" Oh shit. I forgot about that partly.

"Yea. I'll um... Talk to you later. Gotta go now."

Without waiting for him to respond I cut the call. I sat in the car and thought about everything. Cali was talking mean to Nat. Nat, my best-friend, was here and I never knew about it. I didn't know who I should be madder at. I wasn't going back to school, I didn't feel like. There was only one other place I could go to.

A/N: Haha! A cliffy! I'm sorry. It was needed. you'll find out in Ch7. Sorry. Ch6 is gonna cover the nat-Cali dispute! Keep voting! Since we're at 36 votes, can I get 50 votes for the next chapter? Thanks! 50 votes and i'll update 2 chapters! Deal? xx