Spark (GH Series #5)

Part 27

Jack

It's amazing when you are having so much fun, with the person that means more to you than anything else in this world. Our time in Canada flew in. Of course, my friends fell in love with Ellie, and it helps that they love the Scottish accent. Not that I don't have one, my accent tends to change when I visit different countries, I'm weird like that. Carson was kind enough to pick us up from the airport since it was arranged for them to drive my car back after our trip to New York. I'm enjoying travelling and hopefully I can work in another holiday at some point this year, with Ellie of course.

I'm becoming a little frustrated with myself for asking Ellie to wait to be intimate. But I want to make sure that she is absolutely sure that I am truly what she wants. I'm not exactly going to force the subject, but she has left me frustrated on many occasions and that was just by simply kissing me. I know we can't act like a loved-up couple now that we are back home, but we have arranged to hang out with Carson and Damien at a local club and hopefully no-one we know will be there.

Ellie loves dressing up, but tonight she kept it casual. We are trying our best not to be so damn obvious that we are crazy for one another and it's a little frustrating not being able to kiss her publicly when I want to, or when she wants to. A month and a half to go until the trial starts. Maybe we should just stay behind closed doors so I'm not a sad desperate woman choking to kiss her girlfriend. "How was Canada then?"

"Amazing. It's better than I expected, but I'm glad to be home. We are slightly warmer than over there." Carson let out a chuckle and knew what I was getting at. Damien ordered our drinks in and we made our way over to the corner of the club and I was always one to scan the crowd, but tonight I didn't. I'm happy enough to be with my family and my girlfriend and not on the constant look out for Dani popping up out of nowhere.

Then both Carson and Ellie screamed something about this being their song and darted off to the dance floor, leaving Damien and I in the corner, enjoying our drinks. "So, sis, how's it going, really?"

"You know what?" I looked over in Ellie's direction and then smiled. "It's going very well. We agreed to take it slow as we wanted to grow as a couple and not just as friends."

"But it's killing you isn't it?" I brought my beer up to hide my somewhat smirk.

"Was I that transparent when I was with Dani? I'm not exactly pushing us to be intimate and I really do want to wait until she is ready, but I do miss being intimate with someone on that level." Damien nodded his head and our eyes diverted back to our women. "I can't push it. With the trial coming up, she has been meeting up with the lawyer more and discussing tactics I would imagine."

"Yeah. I've had my citation. So has Carson. It came today but we weren't going to say anything as we didn't want to spoil the mood." I can understand why he didn't want to say anything as tonight was about letting our hair down and having fun. We dropped the subject as Carson and Ellie returned for their drinks and quickly guzzled half their glasses. "Thirsty much."

"You know how I get dear hubby when I'm on the dance floor." Carson threw Damien a mocking look and he pretended to be hurt and we all laughed. I honestly love how they both complement each other and admire their relationship.

When we got home, I was bursting for a pee and darted to the bathroom and let out a sigh of relief. Walking back into the living room, Ellie handed me a bottle of water. Quickly taking a drink, I collapsed on the sofa and Ellie plonked herself down next to me. "It's killing you, isn't it?" I looked at her with a confused look on my face.

"I'm not following babe. What are you talking about?"

"Not being able to be with me, publicly. I'm feeling really guilty about it all and I noticed you looking at me dancing a few times and I couldn't help wish that I were dancing with you, slipping my arms around your neck and kissing you." I blinked a few times and looked at Ellie. "I guess, what I'm trying to say is that I'm finding it hard to. We were free to be the real us in America and Canada. Now we are stuck, and I'm scared that it will push you away."

"Hey...hey. Look at me, please?" Ellie turned and faced me more and I gave her a small smile. "Whilst I agree that it's hard not being ourselves in public, its somewhat amusing sneaking around." I'm so not bringing up the lack of intimacy I'm missing, not when she is feeling like this, it would make her head spin more and I did put her in charge of letting me know when she thought the time for us to take that next stage would be. "You know I'm with you, every step of the way."

Ellie

We are now into February and my heads all over the place. My insecurities are bubbling to the surface so I've stayed at work later, talking to my lawyer and I'm ashamed to admit, not spending as much time with Jack as I should. I'm acting like a shit girlfriend, but Jack is so patient and understanding.

I honestly don't know if I would be the same if the roles were reversed and now that it's finally Friday, we are having our usual date night. "I've been thinking." Jack put down her cutlery and looked at me.

"Did it hurt?" She gave me a cheeky smirk and I threw my napkin at her.

"Hey you!" I laughed and it felt genuinely good. "Anyway, I was looking at the calendar and noticed that Valentine's day is on the Saturday. Are you wanting two days nights that week, or just one?" Jack looked at me and seemed somewhat uncomfortable and I continued. "I've been neglecting our relationship lately as I've been trying to keep out of my own head but Jack, I'm needing normality back. I need you back."

"Ellie, you don't need me back, I've never went anywhere. What I've learned about you is that when you are ready, you will open up when something is bothering you, in your own time. I'm not going to push you, and do you know why?" I shook my head slowly. "Apart from the fact I'm crazy about you, that I love you, I don't want to come across like Grant." We both winced at the sound of his name being spoken.

"Oh, Jack...You...you are nothing like him, believe you me. But why the face when I mentioned Valentine's day. Its fast approaching."

"I know. It's just I think it's a huge gimmick for people to rush out, spend stupid amount of money for one day. I would prefer not to celebrate it because every day I'm with you, that is worth more than one special day a year where love is thrown at us." I could see Jacks point of view. "But that is my view on Valentine's day. What's yours?"

"I must admit I'm a sucker for romance, but hearing what you just said, made the butterflies in my stomach go off. Jack, I'm willing to compromise because this...you and I, it's relatively new."

"Come here a second." Jack had got off her chair and opened her phone up to her music app and pressed some buttons and a slow song started and she took me in her arms. "We may not to get dance publicly, but when we do, I think a huge weight will be lifted from both our shoulders, until then, I'm going to dance with you, every day if I have to, in the comfort of our own home. There isn't anything that I would not do for you, anything."

"Even disposing of unwanted guests?" That made Jack chuckle and I rested my head on her shoulder.

"Yes, even disposing of our unwanted eight-legged friends back out into the fresh air."