Forever.

•Chapter 59•

*Emily's POV*
Once I woke up I got ready to go. Cameron was once again driving us to another day of school. I went downstairs and made some toaster waffles. Just as I finished off the last piece, Cameron showed up. I walked outside and got in the car. We drove to my school and got out of the car. I could barely get out one word to Matt before Amanda was already fawning over Cameron. "So I texted Matt all of the deets on my recital tonight. It is casual so you don't have to get dressed up." She said not taking one breath in between sentences. "Ok. See you tonight." Said Cameron with a smile. Then he drove off. "I know I have been kind of a bitch." Stated Amanda. "Yeah, we know too." Snapped Matt. "Well, touchy touchy." She played. "Yep there it is again." Said Matt. "Well, I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I got caught up with everything. Like fake friends, and boys who told me I was special just so I could give them what they wanted. But I'm over it, all of it, and I genuinely hope you have a good day." And with that she left. "Was that just real?" I asked in awe. "I don't know. Maybe she's planning something to make our day shit." Stated Matt. I sighed cause it was probably true. Then we walked into school, probably more cautious than we have ever been in school. The day past with no problems what so ever. Sure you get those looks and stuff, but this is high-school, so it's bound to happen everyday. It's just the perks of growing up. I laughed to myself at the thought of "the perks of growing up" as I made my way to the bus. I looked around the bus and I saw James. He must have gone to school today. I went over and sat next to him. Then Matt joined. We talked for a while as our bus slowly made it's way to our stop. James didn't seem himself but we didn't want to upset him, so we just brushed it off like it was nothing. I knew he needed a friend and I wanted to make it clear to him that I would be that friend. Then the bus screeched to a stop. Matt and I stood up. "See you later James. Stay strong, ok? Matt and I love you, just hold onto that." Then I kissed his forehead and Matt gave him a hug. Then, we left. We got off the bus and went to Matt's house. We walked in and Savannah was there. "Where's Cameron?" I asked her. Then she pointed to the couch. I approached Cameron and mouthed the words, "Does she know?" He shook his head no. I looked down at my hands and started playing with my nails. I had to think to myself. "I'll be right back." I said as I made my way to the bathroom. I walked in, locked the door, and sat down to think. My back was against the wall and my head was in my knees as if I were crying. I ran my fingers through my hair and started to think. "Savannah doesn't know. Amanda is being nice. Cameron is guilty as hell. And this I all going to collapse. Relationships will be broken and so will bonds that have taken time to make. Why am I even fighting for this? It's silly, really." I started to doubt myself for a little while, then I remembered, "This is for James."

*James' POV*
Emily, Matt, and I were talking on the bus and we shared laughs and smiles, but I couldn't stop thinking of my day at school. It was worse than all the others. People told me to kill myself and called me a faggot. Why do I deserve this? I didn't do anything to deserve this. I know high-school is supposed to be tough, but not this tough. The only people I have to hold onto right now are Emily, Matt, and my mom. But what if I... What if I... Just let go...?