Holding On With Maybe (Holding On Series #2)

14

"Mukhang hindi ko na kailangan sabihin yung baka o siguro."

Tahimik ang buong bar. Nangingibabaw ang boses ni Timothy kahit sinasabayan siya nila Bobbie sa pag-awit. Mahina lang din ang pagpapatugtog nila Ken sa instruments. Sobrang chill nung tugtugan nila pero hindi ako makaramdam ng antok. Ang alam ko lang, ibang klase ang gabing 'to.

"At kung ikaw ay mahulog sa bangin... ay sasaluhin kita. Huwag kang matakot na matulog mag-isa, kasama mo naman ako. Huwag kang matakot na umibig at lumuha, kasama mo naman ako," pag-awit niya habang nakatuon ang mga mata niya sa gawi ko. Umiwas lang siya ng tingin dahil sa pagsabay nila Bobbie sa pagkanta niya pero muli rin yun bumalik sa gawi ko. "Huwag kang matakot dahil ang buhay mo'y walang katapusan, makapangyarihan ang pag-ibig na hawak mo sa'yong kamay. Ikaw ang Diyos at hari ng iyong mundo, matakot sila sa'yo."

Hindi ko alam kung sinong kinindatan niya matapos ibagsak ang mga linyang yun at kantahin muli nila yung chorus.

Nang matapos sila ay nagpalakpakan ang mga tao sa loob ng bar at kasama na ako roon. Tsaka ko lang napansin na mas dumami na yung tao ngayon kaysa kanina.

Ganito na ba sila ka in demand dito?

"We're just beginning," Timothy said in his gentle voice, dahilan para mas mag-ingay ang mga tao sa bar. Hindi ko alam kung pakiramdam ko lang ba 'to o sa akin talaga siya nakatingin?

Vaughn and Luther who's now sitting next to each other began the beat on the keyboard in front of them along with Ken who's on the drums.

"It's a long night and a big crowd under these lights looking 'round for you," Timothy sang. "Yeah, I'm steppin' outside under moonlight to get my head right, lookin' out for you, yeah." A smirk was plastered on his face, his attitude now is way different from the song they sang earlier.

It's as if in an instant, his personality just shifted.

He left me wondering how he just did that.

"Could it be your eyes didn't know that I've been waitin', waitin' for you. When you're by my side, everything's alright. Crazy, I'm crazy for you." I watch his playful expression as he sang, I averted his gaze because I cannot stand it.

With that stare, smirk, and voice?

Gago.

Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko.

Doon na lang ako sa screen ng camera nanuod, pero kahit doon, hindi ako tinatantanan ng mga mata niya na parang nangungusap.

"Oh, here I go, down that road, again and again the fool rushin' in. But I can't help, when I feel some kind of way, do you feel the same? 'Cause and I fall, I fall for you. You caught me at my weakest, and I fall for you."

The more I listen to what he's singing, the more I grasp the message of it. Do I perceive it correctly? Or I'm just assuming?

Is this song included in the requested one earlier?

Hindi ko pa nga alam kung sino yung snowflake. Ako ba yun? Ang assuming ko naman yata... pero yung tingin ni Timothy.

Nasa gawi ko hanggang ngayon yung atensyon niya.

Binawi niya lang saglit noong nagsimula na siyang tumugtog sa gitara niya kasabay sila Carl at Bobbie.

"Nah, it's a long night and a big crowd under this lights looking 'round for you," he paused and hummed. "You, you give me hope, right reason desire livin' this life only now, for you. Oh, for you."

My heart started to beat erratically when I found my eyes on him and found out that his eyes locked up in my direction again, his serious gaze, and his sudden lip bite was for sure, attractive.