Holding On With Maybe (Holding On Series #2)

epilogue 5:6

Getting into Segvillon's Residence was something I was already used to. When Alyson departed from that residence, that was the time I was welcomed there. I saw fragments of her from her parents, her soft side from her mom, and her brave side from her dad.

Her parents' traits were equally divided and given to her and from that moment, I knew where Aly got the huge piece of her character. I knew that all she is before and now came from her home.

But even so, I also grasped that Aly's reason why she left is valid. Not because you felt so home and safe means you should stay, not because your environment is building you to be a better person means it won't destroy you.

Sometimes, you also have to learn to live within turmoil, to find calm in the middle of a storm, and that's what Aly did. At first, I really didn't understand her leaving, I thought it was really selfish of her, but not until I found out that she really means well when she moved. It was part of her growth after all.

To leave her safe space and face the cruel world alone, that is where and when she really proved that she can do things all by herself.

And it's true, someday you'll stop questioning why things happen when it starts to unfold before you. From Aly and I's parting, from being hurt by my own parents both physically and mentally, from living the plan I never made in the first place, into living alone, meeting new people, getting into therapy, re-aligning the plan made for me, making peace with my parents, and then meeting Aly again.

Surprising that the beginning of my life's chaos was also the tranquillity I found in the end.

And it's always with her.

I was now well aware of Aly's reasons behind her choices before and I would never stop apologizing for making her feel sorry for choosing herself, for making things difficult for her when she just saved herself and I mean that.

For the past weeks, I tried to keep my distance close to her even if I was getting busier because of my preparation for the BAR month, and I was happy that Aly seems to get along. Sometimes, we'd have coffee. Sometimes, we'd have lunch.

And Aly...

She's always been so understanding. I once asked her if I bore her because we really don't talk that much when we're together because I was really facing my reviewers and she told me that she's well entertained while watching me study.

Of course, that made me speechless again.

"Site visit?" I asked when I saw her walking towards the exit of the company.

"Hindi," sagot niya habang umiiling. "Uuwi na ako."

My forehead creased as I looked at my watch. "It's just 9 AM." I looked at her.

"Masama 'yong pakiramdam ko."

"Hatid na kita," I offered because then, I noticed that she's pale.

"Hindi na kailangan," she refused. "May trabaho ka pa."

"Can you drive?"

"O-Oo."

"Hindi ka sigurado," I stated the obvious. Hindi pa rin talaga nawawala 'yon sa ugali niya. "Wait here," dagdag ko at mabilis na naglakad palayo sa kanya. Pumunta ako sa opisina ni Atty. Sevilla para sabihin na may kailangan lang akong asikasuhin. Hindi naman na siya nagtanong pa kaya nakaalis din ako agad, tinakbo ko pa 'yong hallway dahil baka hindi ko na maabutan si Aly.

Matigas pa naman ulo noon minsan.

"Anong ginawa mo?" Tanong niya nang makita ako.

"Ihahatid na kita."