When I Fall In Love With A Girl(Fernandez Series #1)

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We stayed for a while holding each other hands while looking at the calm, serene lake. Her head resting on my shoulder. We're relaxing in our silence. Somehow it fills me up. It indeed calms my nerves and soothes my troubling heart.

In our tranquility, she spoke. "You will not let go, right?" said in a small voice. I can't help but to chuckle, it's her 15 times asking me this. She secretly pinched my hands.

"Ouch!"maarteng singhal ko at narinig ang tunog ng ngisi nya. I glanced at her and her smirk eventually turn into a grim line.

I sighed. "I'm not. 15 times ko ng sinabing hindi."

"I'm just worried."she said in a small voice. I smile and kiss her forehead.

"I know. I'm sorry for making you worry."

Humigpit ang kapit nya sa aking kamay. "I...I'm scared. Natatakot ako na baka pagdating ko, lalayuan mo ako. Natatakot ako na baka pagkadating ko sasabihin mong hindi mo na ako mahal. Natatakot ako na baka iyong mahigpit na hawak mo saakin, bumitaw na."

Napaawang ako sa mga salita nya. Maybe because it's been a long time since i heard her talk too long, or maybe because I never know that she will feel this way about me. I'm always scared, na baka hindi ako ang piliin nya, lagi akong natatakot na baka kinabukasan nasa isip nalang nya na hindi ang isang gaya ko ang papantay sa kagaya nya.

I was too busy focusing on my anxiety and insecurities that i forgot that she's afraid of losing me. She always pampers me. While now, she's in here, holding my hand while her fingers intertwined with me is shivering, it hurts my heart.

"When i saw your handkerchief and not you, I was incredibly scared, alam kong hindi mo kayang mag-iwan ng gamit mo or mahulog mo, and when i ask those people in there, nakita ka daw nila na pumasok sa sasakyan, pinapalibutan ng mga bodyguard." She blink and take a deep breath.

"I-i was filled with fears, dahil alam kong dumating na din ang araw na tatawagin ka ni Mama."

Di ako umimik at tumingin sa tubig.

"W-when i saw your mother...para akong kinain ng dilim, wala akong maisip, wala akong masabi. She was really scary,"i tried to ease the atmosphere by laughing but she held my hand tighter.

"A-and then. She said that...that." my voice broke remembering her words. It's like someone is cutting my throat, it burns up and my eyes are welling at tears.

Her hand swiftly went to my nape and gently guide me to his shoulder. She hug me, with his warm body I feel secured. And my heart hurt more. It hurts that I sob so hard, it hurts that I desperately hug her, tightly, never wanting to let her go.

I don't want to let go of her, I want to be with her! I want to shout that to her mother, but i was and I'm still scared, the agitation, anxiety and hurtful words that I take in the house.

"Astral. How did you even manage to live in there." I whisper to her between my sob. She paused.

"Probably the desperation to get out of there." Tipid nitong sabi with a half-smile on her face.

Dahan-dahan kong tinanggal ang pagkakayakap ko sa kanya at tinignan ang kanyang matang puno ng takot at pangamba, ng sakit at kalungkutan. I caressed her cheeks softly.

"You did well." I answer. Her eyes widen at clears up, twinkling. Her palm touched my hands caressing her cheeks and smile, feeling the warm soft touch.

"You also did well. Talking to my mother, being in front of her. I know she said hurtful words, but I love the way you are Toni. Kaya kung may sinira man sya sayo, wag kang maniwala. You're more than enough to me, you're more than that."