When I Fall In Love With A Girl(Fernandez Series #1)

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"You'll just have to wait for me. I'll come back soon. Fight for us, Toni."

Mahina akong ngumiti kay Astral at tumango. She's right, I have to fight for us. I know that I can't live without her. And I don't want to live without her.

"Okay." Tanging sambit ko and gave her a reaasurance smile. She weakly smile to me and kissed me on my cheeks.

I really don't know if it's assurance for her...or for me.

Because...

Hindi alam kung kakayanin kong maghintay sa kanya.

"Do you want to get some fresh air?" she said between our silence. I smile and nodded to her.

Naglalakad kami ngayon sa acacia pathway. As always, this place looks stunning. I need this right now, after that long talk, I need a fresh of air. I look in the branch of trees. Naliliwanagan ang mga dahon ng sinag ng araw para mas lumiwanag ang mga kulay berdeng dahon. Ang mga dahon na dahan-dahan na nahuhulog at parang isang balahibo ng ibon kung marahan na bumababa sa lupa. It's slow, gentle and light fall.

This is kind of relaxing and at the same time wrecking my heart. Because I know what I should ask, kung kalian sya aalis. And I don't like that I already know the answer. Because she'll leave right now. It's a problem that need a fast solution. All of her workers are walking in a breaking branches, someone needs to pull them out of there.

That's why I need to be a considerate lover. I need to understand that. I need to tolerate my broken crying voice. I need not to beg not to leave me.

Bumuntong-hininga ako habang hawak-hawak ang kanyang kamay. It's warm. Napangiti ako, I'll miss touching her. Her warmth, her smile, her eyes, the way she encourage me to be better, the way she cares about my feelings, the way she understand my pain and suffering, her showing love and shower of praises to boast my confidence.

Naramdaman ko ang basa sa aking mata, pinilig ko agad ang ulo ko at ngumiti. No, Don't show any weaknesses, Toni. Don't act like she'll leave forever.

Don't say goodbye on your thoughts for her. Please. Let yourself fight.

"Kailan ka 'den aalis?" I find my courage to speak and smile. She did not answer at first.

"Probably...Today." her voice is dripping with a sad tone. I flinch and just automatically gave a nervous chuckle.

"A-ah, n-ngayon. A-anong oras." I gulped, trying my best not to broke my voice. Nakaramdam agad ako ng init sa sulok ng mata. I look forward and clenching my jaw so hard not to let it go down.

"Right now. After we walk to this path. I have to go." Mapait na ngiting sabi nito. I paused.

"O-oh."

I nervously chuckled. "A-ang bilis naman! Kanina lang natin pinag-u-usapan..." I cleared my throat, trying not to broke down.

"After hearing your thoughts earlier, I should work on it immediately to be with you."

"Ri-right."

Hah.

I thought na may ilang araw pa muna kami mag-sasama. Di ko alam na huling araw na pala naming ngayon na magkasama. Edi sana kanina hindi ako nag-broke down! Edi sana hindi muna sya aalis! Why am I so stupid!

She suddenly stop and goes to my front. And when I saw her clear eyes look at me, my tears suddenly just fall down, breaking all the walls I've trying to built.

"I know it's too sudden to go. But this is the only way to be with you. I promise I'll work faster, I'll solve this problem immediately." She said in gentle voice.