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43.

This is why Meredith avoided getting involved with boys. This feeling right now, the way her heart actually hurt, was the reason she had always stuck to one night stands instead of letting a guy get into her heart or whatever. Because she did not like feeling this way at all. She wasn't sure if she wanted to cry or scream. After nine days, she wasn't sure what she wanted to do. She just knew she hated boys, specifically Derek Shepherd.

He had sworn to her that he was going to visit. He had told her a million times that he was going to keep coming except apparently the whole thing had been a big huge lie. He had visited twice, given her the stupid present and then had totally vanished.

It just didn't make any sense. He had been funny and charming and he had said things. Stupid things that made the shivers she had felt when he had last hugged her okay. And then he had vanished. Which made him a massive ass. It wasn't like he could possibly be busy. According to Aaron he was back to doing paperwork for his company but he wasn't actually working. And he was at the hospital all the time for therapy appointments. He just apparently didn't want to stop and say hi anymore.

And she hated him for it. She had gotten used to his visits and now he was just...gone. Totally gone. She had a feeling that was why she was going a little overboard on her skills lab. Which was stupid to let a guy get to her this much, really stupid. He was just a guy and she knew he was taken when she had met him and when he had promised to visit and she knew it wasn't going to happen so this was probably just a good thing.

"Um...Mer..." George swallowed heavily. "I think you you're hurting Stan."

"What?" Meredith frowned.

"Dude's bleeding all over the place," Alex laughed.

"Crap."

"Nice," Cristina laughed.

"It's not nice!" Meredith snapped.

"Woah, Mer," Cristina raised an eyebrow.

"Sorry," Meredith sighed, taking a deep breath. "Sorry."

"You're the one killing Stan."

"I'm just...distracted."

"You don't say."

"Shut up."

"Who pissed in your Cheerios?" Alex asked.

"No one," she sighed. "I'm fine."

"Which is why you're killing Stan," Cristina nodded. "Makes sense."

"I can't kill Stan, he's a robot."

"He just said he was dead," George pointed out.

"Okay, but still...robot. It's not like he'd dead dead."

"If he were a patient he would be."

"Well he's not!"

"Damn, Grey," Alex laughed as Lexie came in.

"What's up?" Lexie asked.

"Mer's killing Stan," George reported.

"What? Why?" Lexie frowned. "Oh...he didn't come today, did he?"

"No," Meredith snapped.

"Oh Mer..."

"I'm fine."

"Clearly," Alex nodded.

"No one asked you or your stupid boy penis."

"Mer, breathe," Lexie said gently.

"I am, Lexie," Meredith groaned.

"You're not."

"I will be if I can kill my robot in piece."