For Your Love. {Damiano David}

Chapter Eighteen - Someone To Stay.

You were alone, left out in the cold
Clinging to the ruin of your broken home
Too lost and hurting to carry your load
We all need someone to hold

You've been fighting the memory, all on your own
Nothing worsens, nothing grows
I know how it feels being by yourself in the rain
We all need someone to stay
We all need someone to stay

Hear the fallen and lonely, cry out
Will you fix me up? Will you show me hope?
At the end of the day you were helpless
Can you keep me close? Can you love me most?

You've drunk it down and you've spat it out
And nothing tastes like the things you had
So tear it off, why don't you let them go?
We all need someone to stay.

November 11th 2020.

The light of the morning was seeping through my windows as I lay there emptily on my bed staring up at the ceiling. I had been staring at the same spot for over five hours ever since I had gotten in. I was too upset to sleep, I was too upset to do anything.
The tears had stopped an hour and a half ago.

There's a small knock on my door and my head finally rolls over to its side.

"If it's Damiano, fuck off" I call out bluntly. The door open and my Nonna opens the door with an upset expression on her face.

"Oh bambino" She sighs sadly, shuffling into the room and laying down next to me on my bed. I turn my body into her side and clench my eyes shut, just wanting the pain to go away. Why couldn't it just go away?
A few tears roll down my cheek numbly as she rubs my back comfortingly, kissing the top of my head over and over again. 

"Are you okay amore?"

"Yeah... I'm fine" I nod reassuringly, keeping my head buried so she couldn't see the tears rolling down my face. 

"No you're not amore, it's okay not to be okay" She pulls away to look me in the eyes as she strokes my damp cheeks.  The kindness in her eyes made me feel so safe always, I couldn't hold it back anymore.
I break down into tears and sob my heart out completely, letting Nonna hold me tightly while reassuring me that everything will be okay. 

"It's okay sunshine, let it all out. I know you're too proud to show your tears but when I go... baby I'm going to need you to cry those tears because if you don't it'll break you into pieces"

11:45

After I had calmed down, I walked Nonna downstairs to get some early lunch that my mother had made. The whole family, everyone but Damiano was sitting there. As soon as they saw me, sympathetic smiles were thrown in my direction... all except Alessia.

"Where's Dee?" She asks immediately, looking around behind me to see if he was there.

"Alessia!" My mother hisses at her angrily. 

"I don't know bug..." I trail painfully. I help Nonna into her chair and sigh, the smell of the food beginning to make me feel nauseous. 

"You staying for some lunch love?" My dad asks hopefully.

"No... I'm not feeling too great so I'll probably just go and lay down" I smile sadly, excusing myself from the room. I walk into the hallway just as the front door opens and Damiano walks into the house tiredly. We both glance over at each other briefly. 
His eye makeup had streamed down his face and was now dry, his eyes were tired and he was still in last nights outfit. I couldn't look at him any longer. I turn my back from him and begin to walk up the stairs only to hear him call my name hoarsely. 

"No Damiano, don't" I mumble back, continuing my way upstairs until I was out of sight. I walk down the hallway to my room and shut the door behind me with the sudden urge to fuck up my room. I couldn't take it anymore. I grab the vase that was resting on my mantel piece, throwing it against the wall angrily, watching as it shattered down onto my bed. My fist slams against the wall repeatedly until my hand begins to burn and ache terribly. Why did I let him make me feel so stupid all over again, now everyone was going to sympathize with me all over again and I hated it. I fucking hated it!