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Lying

Remus hand snaked around Sirius waste, pulling closer, stumbling backwards and hitting the wall. It was all too much and too good, it was over before he could register the pleasure, the soft buzz in his chest. Sirius had pulled away and stammered something before walking away down the stairs.
Remus just snogged his best mate on the dorm stairs.
Fuck.
Sirius didn't look him in the eye for a few days. Remus wondered if Sirius was mad, he hadn't done anything like that before and didn't know the repercussions to
Come with it. He missed Sirius, too. He knew that it probably wasn't the best idea but Sirius had kissed him back, and it was pretty heated for a solid five minutes, why didn't Sirius just go to bed with him, he obviously enjoyed it, and it would be easier to talk things out if they had sex, maybe Sirius wouldn't be avoiding him now.
Honestly he had to talk to him, or else this would all go to shit.
It was late and James was out with lily, and Peter was with Dorcas and Sirius was reading a book in bed while Remus tried to focus on his Oscar Wilde

O singer of Persephone!
In the dim meadows desolate
Dost thou remember Sicily?

he kept getting lost and couldn't focuse to even finish a stanza, he was so upset and confused it was too much.

"Why'd you kiss me back."
Sirius glanced up from his book "what?"
"You're fucking me Over. You kissed me back, now you're avoiding me like I forced myself on you, I didn't do that and I think it's shitty that your ignoring me now."
Sirius had put his book down and was standing at Remus bed now
"Moony, in your best friend, I've known you since I was 11, were 17 now. I'm not going to ruin everything for a hand job, maybe even a blowie if I was lucky. I don't want to loose you, Remus you mean to much to me. If I wanted a quick fuck I'd go to Ravenclaw commons and pick up dude in a minute but Remus, I want something more with you and if you don't want that I don't want anything. I'm not throwing six years away. I'm sorry"
Oh god. Sirius was dumb. He was absolutely stupid. So so dumb.
Remus didn't want a quick fuck, no of course not he wanted a relationship. And every pitty thought was worse then the last.
What if Remus didn't get the fairy tail relationship he wanted, what if the days wondering what if felt like to be held by Sirius, to be touched by Sirius long supple fingers, what if his dessire so unruly so, turned ruly. What if this was the end of era that hadn't even started.
He had spent so many nights thinking about Sirius, waiting for the perfect moment, just for his own words to be misused and abused. He let out a sob and watched as Sirius face turned from stern and unfazed to confused.
"That's not what I meant!" He said, sounding like a little kid.
"That's not what I want!" He felt like screaming and crying and throwing a fit like a little kid. There was so much he wanted to say and so much that wouldn't come out. It's like everything was on the tip of his tounge. His instinct was to rush out with everything but he knew better so he took a moment, just a few seconds to think.
He was in a dangerous situation, one wrong choice and he'd fall of the metaphorical edge.
A precipice.
"a very steep rock face or cliff, especially a tall one."
( French)précipice or (Latin) praecipitium 'abrupt descent', from praeceps, praecip , steep, headlong'
He couple explain his feelings, stumble over his words a little and (hopefully) come to a agreement with Sirius or he could go for the more reasonable choice and let Sirius know his feelings are heard and try not to backtrack over Sirius own feelings, making him feel little and unimportant.
"Sirius, I don't want a quick fuck- i I want something more I want to be with you. And make you happy. I want to-I want to love you."
Sirius was rendered speechless.
He had to be lying.