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Dizzy. God how Sirius was so dizzy, he felt as tho he might collapse at any moment. His head was pounding and the seats were so tiny, and the talking, the perfumes, the cake, the bright decorations, the dress. God she looked so pretty in a dress, the white dress showed her curves just perfectly but how badly Sirius wished it was someone else, even him. Sirius wished it was him marrying Remus. His bloody cousin. He was trying so hard to keep his composure, to just take a breath and this would be over soon and he could go home and sulk. He imagined his bed, and the tub of ice cream. Hed definitely jack off to "skinny boys with pale skin and scars" later(the head feel bad and cry about it later and delete his search history just to make sure it didn't happen again.) oh god and now he felt guilty and the ceremony was starting. Remus would notice if he wasn't there for the after party, he would also notice if he was shit faced at the after party too. He settled on a quick cry in the bathroom, he'd be done and ready for the party and maybe he'd have one too many drinks.
He whispered to James that it was getting too much, and James immediately knew, letting Sirius slip past, motioning for lily to follow him.
As he sat on the Church bathroom floor, a muffin and a beer in hand, while crying Sirius realized just bad he had gotten again. Just how pathetic he was too.
He should be happy for Remus but he just couldn't find the strength. He wanted Remus to touch him. He wanted Remus to love him. But that wouldn't happen. A silly thought at that. Sirius took another swig of his beer and went to stand up but there was a knock on the door "it's occupied."
"Sirius let me in." It was Remus
"Shit Remus I'm-" and Sirius opened the door and couldn't hold back and sob. He was handsome. His hair was slightly in his eyes, and his tux was fitted perfectly( he looked amazing in black.) and Remus rushed inside shutting the door behind him "hey..whats wrong" and then Remus saw the bottles on the floor, and the jacket on the floor. "Shit Sirius are you getting shitfaced in the Church bathroom??"
Remus looked down "I'm sorry I ruined your wedding."
"Sirius what the fuck is wrong?"
"You. You're what's wrong. I need you. I want you to touch me, to make me feel good. I want you to love me. I want you to marry me. I want you. But you want her. You want her." And Sirius started to cry even harder now, he just confessed his love to his best friend who is married, and straight. God he ruined this. Sirius tried to move past Remus "Sirius..." and Sirius stopped "I'm sorry Remus."
Remus grabbed Sirius wrist as he walked past "come here Sirius." And Sirius did, standing in front of Remus.
"Don't tell anyone about this" and Sirius understood, Remus didn't want anyone knowing about what he had just said, but before Sirius could move away Remus had done something, done something he didn't expect. Remus kissed him. Then kissed his jaw, up and down it, to his neck.
Remus wrapped his arms under Sirius ass, lifting him onto the counter moving his way to Sirius collar bone quickly unbuttoning his shirt and throwing it off "you look so pretty like this. Flushed."
Sirius moaned out and Remus whispered a small ' oh fuck' and stripped himself down to his trousers "I'm gonna fuck you hard and fast, you'd like that hm? You'd be keen."

Sirius layed breathless on the bathroom floor, completely naked sitting next to the Remus lupin after being fucked, not once, but twice on his wedding night. "We just fucked on the church floor, on your wedding night instead of going to your after party. And your straight" Remus passed Sirius a cig "bisexual."
"Oh."
"I'm getting a divorce."
"Really?"
"Sirius we just fucked."
Maybe it didn't set in yet that remus was in fact married, to his cousin let alone a woman.
"I really didn't mean to ruin it."
"You didn't ruin anything. You just opened my eyes. I guess I always knew I didn't want to Mary tonks. I just didn't know it was because I fancied blokes"
"Well. I'll be here, okay?"

And he was there. He was there for years. Eventually they grew old. And their bones went stiff. And as they sat in rocking chairs with poetry in hand, and there brittle fingers interlocked they realized that they did it. They were the people in the fairy tales that are just magical. The ones who are 'just silly story's'
Because they grew old, and their hair went gray. And every night when Sirius when to bed, the last thing he would think was.
He's so beautiful.