More heartbreak.
Muggle au"Remus?" Sirius stepped closer to the edge- just to see if Remus was, well, conscious. He was. "You're scaring me." Remus smiled a little, it was a selfish smile too because it was inward. Meant for his pleasure. "Good." Sirius shook his head and stepped closer so Remus continued "that means you care. It was beginning to look like you didn't. There's such a fine line between caring and just, being selfish." Sirius didn't respond for a second, had to think about what he was going to say, which was rare in any instance, this especially. Sirius felt as if he was gagging, spit accumulating in his mouth with seeming to be nerves.
"I am selfish, just not in the way you think." Sirius sat on the edge, and oh good how he hated that feeling. That there was truly nothing underneath him. It made his stomach turn.
Remus looked at Sirius as If he were begging. For him to say something, something good. He looked so crestfallen that Sirius almost sobbed. "I'm selfish because I care. Because I want and I want and I don't take a moment for anything else. I want to see you in mornings.or at night or when your hurt, I want to take care of you, I want to feed you when your hungry and I want to care of every single problem you have. Make you feel good." Sirius shivered, his mind drifting from the obvious situation "kiss you. Kiss your face, all over. Everywhere" Sirius' voice was breathy and rough, going deeper by the word
"I'm in love with you."
Remus reached out and gripped Sirius hand, he pulled Sirius close to him,his lap, he didn't even move back from the edge. Remus drug his lips up Sirius neck, who threw his head back.
He could see over the cliff, it was about a 12 drop until another ledge, it was the size of a small room and it looked as if some druggies had found it since it had a couch and a dug out hole.They say the Christian's wait for the rapture. Really, neither Sirius or Remus would know. But sometimes he wished he was a Christian, for some sense of way in life. To think "stay alive because___" Remus dosnt have that. Some people say they stay alive for the rapture, because it's too important to miss. He wished Sirius would hold onto him like a rapture.
As they sat Remus pulled out a rolled spliff and lighter.
"I hate you." Remus said through the smoke, he reached out and ran his hand up Sirius side, reaching his collar bone, then ear. He leant in and kissed just below his ear. "God I fucking hate you. You're the rapture and Lucifer all in one. You make me want and- and you make me hurt. You make me feel things I've never felt before. And it's scary. And I have no one to turn to. No one to talk to, or to tell, I have no one. And i want it to be you" Sirius reached up, with shaky arms, and held Remus head, by the base of his neck. He turned slowly until he and Remus eyes met and he smiled a little and kissed him. Just a peck. He wiped Remus eyes, who didn't realize he was crying and then pulled him to his chest and shushed him.Life was hard and shitty but there was good things and Remus had to realize that, had to realize he didn't need a rapture or Lucifer or anything he just needed a little time.
An: I had such a bad day. I had to leave early because I had a panic attack because I thought I was gonna see the guy who sa'd me, and I legit sat in guidance sobbing.
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