Working With The Rockstar - JH

Chapter 4

Liza pov

"Hey Mar." I sighed as I sat down by the headstone.

"A lot has happened since I last spoke to you."

"You know, so many things have changed now. I finally started making music. I'm gonna live out my dream, just like you always wanted me to do. I've got songs for you. Solely dedicated to you. I really wish you were here. Landon is working to be a music producer. He's working with Travis, and I pay him to design the backing music for my songs. I still think you should've stayed around."

I fell silent for a while. The breeze had picked up, but it was peaceful. I looked at his headstone and saw a bit of moss growing on it. I leaned over and brushed it off as I felt my eyes start to sting.

"Oh god. You don't know how much I miss you baby. I miss you so fucking much. You should be here with us. We can't be the three musketeers without our third musketeer. It's so hard without you Marls. I really need you here." I choked out as I started to sob.

"Fuck this shit." I mumbled as I pulled out a pre-rolled joint.

I lit the paper and brought it to my lips. I inhaled as the smoke hit the back of my throat, the burning sensation immediately calming my nerves.

"You know I'm gonna go platinum Marley. I'm gonna be out there in the world, singing in every country. All with you by my side. Wait, no. You'll be in my heart. You can't be by my side because you're six feet under me." I giggled slightly.

I took a few more hits of the joint before burning it out on the grass and throwing it back in my bag. I sat and watched as the sky turned all shades of pink and orange, the sun setting over the horizon.

"Oh, I never told you, I think I might be bisexual. I don't know though. You're the only person I've told so far so you need to shh. You can't tell Landon yet. When you left me I became heartless. I haven't loved anyone like I loved you since you've been gone. Obviously I'll always have love for Landon, but never in the same way I had love for you. When you left, you took every ounce of love I had left in me. I've just been fucking around with people, never even considering staying loyal to one person.

I think I'm scared to love. Scared that if I love someone else the way I loved you, it will all disappear again. I don't want to be alone, but you were the only one I wanted to be with. I don't think I can see myself with anyone else. I want to settle down and be with someone, but they will never be you."

It quickly fell silent again. The weed was now in full swing. I was as high as a kite. I was staring down at the little caterpillar on the top of the headstone.

"I met someone new today Marley." I said, looking intently at the little caterpillar. "I didn't freak out, or panic. He even heard me singing your song. He complimented it, he really liked it. I think. His name was Jaden. He's really sweet, well, he was for the whole five minutes I spoke to him, but Landon really likes him. They're best friends apparently. Can you believe that? Landon Barker has replaced me as the best friend.

I think you'd really like Jaden. You two had the same vibe. He's kind of cute. He had an edgy vibe you get me? He also makes music. His song Comatose is really good. Landon showed me it. I think when I get home I'll listen to more of his music. I wanna see if I can chill with this guy." I sighed as I watched the little caterpillar crawl onto my finger.

I moved it over to a leaf, and watched it wriggle away. I sat back and brought my knees to my chest. I was becoming more sober now. My high had been and gone, and now I was sobering up. I looked up into the sky to see it almost crystal clear. Just a few fluffy clouds here and there, but nothing obscuring the blues and purples.

"Can you see me Marley? If you can, you'll see me do this." I said as I hugged his headstone and gave it a gentle kiss. "I can't wait to see you again so I can do that in real life. Make sure you keep that with you Marls. You don't know what I'd do to get one more kiss from you. I love you and I'll come talk to you soon okay? Bye now." I sighed as I stood up.

I grabbed my bag and stumbled my way down the hill. I got into my car and sighed. I looked up at his lonely stone on the hill. I turned on the ignition to my car and I started to make my way home.

I pulled up at my apartment complex and parked my car in the garage centre. When I got inside my apartment, I dumped my bag in the side. I grabbed a leftover slice of pizza from about two nights ago and made my way to Marley's room.

Because he stayed with me so much, I turned one of the three guest rooms into his room. Landon has one, Marley has one, and the third is just a general spare room. I keep buying the cologne he wore and spraying it on his old clothes, so they still smell like him.

I put on one of his old shirts and I laid down in his bed. I took one deep breath in, getting drunk off of his smell. He always smelled of Bleu de Chanel mixed with the small musk of weed. It was kind of weird, but it was always Marley.

And that's how I fell asleep. Imagining I was in the arms of my best friend again.