My Rule

Chapter 41

I sighed as I woke up. I really didn't want to go ask him what was wrong, but I was going to do it anyway. I knew I was going to get hurt. Have him make fun of me, physically hurt me, anything that he could.

I got dressed in a black and white baseball t shirt with green jeans and converse. I told Brianna my problem as she was putting my hair in a braid.

"I just don't want him to think I still want him. He'll definitely make fun of me." I said sniffing.

"Well, the worst he could do is not say anything to you and ignore you. No punch or harassment could stop you from doing what was right." She said twisting my hair in the rubber band. "All done." She said.

I looked in the mirror and smiled. It was perfect. She braided the top tightly but all braids on my head came down into a short ponytail. "Thank you." I said hugging her. She reluctantly hugged me back. I forgot she's not all huggy huggy.

"Sorry" "No it's okay. Are you sure you don't want me to come with you?" She asked.

I nodded. She playfully punched me in the arm. "Good luck kid. And, if it comes to that, don't hesitate to use what you used in the arena yesterday." She said smirking. I smiled halfway and walked off to Carl's room.

The whole way there I was just wondering what I would see if I went in their room. Them kissing? Any of 'that' kind of activity? I hoped not. I don't think my heart could've taken it if I saw that.

My thoughts drained out though as did the color of my skin when I reached the room. You can do this Lilly. My thoughts said.

I knocked on the door three times and waited for an answer. But sure enough, my plans were ruined when I saw the Royal Bitch answer. She gave me a look and I sighed.

"Can I please talk to Carl?" I asked. She thought for a bit, and then shook her head saying he wasn't here, smiling.

I looked away balling up my fist putting it on the wall. "Enid, I'm not playing games. I need go talk to him." I breathed out.

She laughed and said, "Well, neither am I. He's not here, and he doesn't want to see you. So I guess you'll be in your way." She said closing the door. I put my foot in the space between it. "Enid. I. Need. To. Talk. To. Carl. Now." "Well, you're not going to! He doesn't like you anymore. He likes me. You had your chance so leave!" She said pushing me and slamming the door.

I fell into the wall hard. Did she just, oh I'm about to whoop her ass.

I knocked on the door again and this time I wasn't joking around.

"Enid, open the God Damn door right now." I growled. She stuck her middle finger under the door to me. I stepped on it hard and she whined in pain. "I'm not playing games open the door right now." "LEAVE!" She yelled.

I rolled my eyes looking away and smiling chuckling. I turned away but then back at her punching the door. I heard her yelp and tell me to leave again. Okay. That is it. I backed up against the wall and waited for my energy to kick in. I pushed off the wall with my back and turned around ninga kicking the door down. I look in the room and see a terrified Enid and a scared Carl.

I breathed out heavily looking at the door. The lock and the one hinge broke.

"I'm not fixing that first of all. Second, Enid, I want to talk to Carl in private. And if you do not..." I started looking down and clenching my teeth, "Get out on the count of three, you're going to end up like that door. Understand? 1."

"You can't make me." She said.

"2." I said taking a step forward clenching my fists.

"I'm not a child!"

"3!" I said grabbing her by the shirt.

She screamed and then ran out.

Carl was sitting in his bed with a scared look on his face. I sat down on the bed and wiped my tears that streamed down my face. He handed me a box of tissues and I took one. I looked at him with his icy blue eyes that matched mine.

"Carl..." I said trying not to cry. He got closer to me. "Yeah?" He asked. I sniffed. "Are you okay?" I said. He looked at me with his sad eyes and a tear rolling down his cheek.

"No. I'm not okay." He said looking down. "What is wrong?" I asked. "Nothing you wouldn't understand." "Carl I'm not playing games." "Neither am I. And why would you care anyway? You with your new boyfriend Zach, why do you care?"

I looked at him in disbelief. "Zach... is not my boyfriend..." I said. He rolled his eyes laughing getting up from the bed. "Oh yeah? Then how do you explain the make out session that was happening yesterday? Tell me that Lilly." "He was trying to make me feel better!" "From what?"

"FROM YOU! OKAY FROM YOU! I can't stand seeing you with Enid and doing all the stuff that we used to do! I loved you Carl. I truly did live you and I still do! And I've been trying to get my mind off you for the past week but it's just too damn hard! I still love you! But obviously I don't matter anymore because of Enid! You obviously love her more than me so you know what? Just forget it! I'm so shocked that even after you said you'd always love me no matter what, and yet you still did this to me."

He stood there dumbfounded. Here I am pouring my heart out to him and he says nothing.

I shook my head. "I should've just stuck with My Rule from the beginning. Because I knew that this would happen. But I tried to convince myself that you were better and my way of thinking was wrong. But yet again I am proven right. I just can't anymore."

He came over to me and tried to touch my arm. "Lilly.... I -"

"No forget it!" I interrupted. "I'm tired of all this. Because obviously everything we did and everything I did wasn't good enough for you. Including me."

I walked over to the window and sobbed into my hand. I felt arms wrap around my waist and Carl come by my side. I wiped my tears and looked away.

"Lilly look at me." I shook my head no. "Lillyana Elizabeth Greene look at me." I wiped my tears and looked at him. He had both his hands on the bottom of my shoulders holding me close. He was leaning in. I felt myself leaning too. We were so close but got interrupted by Rick running in.

"Dad what's going on?" He asked letting go of me.

"Walkers in the arena!"

What?! How is that even possible?