Cast of Spell [COMPLETED]

/59/ Broken Spell

The spell was shattered...

I don't know how..

But it shattered..

My senses came back .

Hindi ako umalis sa kinatatayuan ko. I just stayed here,  gathering my thoughts. I cannot----- I paused, I can do this. Pero hindi ko alam kung saan ako sisimula, hindi ko alam kung paano ako babangon. I was broken, shattered into a tiny pieces.

I sob again falling into my knees. Tinakpan ko ang mukha ko gamit ang dalawa kong kamay at sabay yuko, the surroundings are dead black and the crickets are the only one I can hear,cold wind runs everywhere.

Napahinto ako sa pag-iyak nang may naramdaman akong kamay sa balikat ko. Dahan-dahan kong tinanggal ang mkamay sa mukha ko at tumingala. I was expecting someone but this is much better.

"I'm sorry" My voice broke out of humiliation

"Tumayo ka diyan, i-uuwi kita" Inalalayan ako ni April na tumayo. Nang makatayo na ako kinuha niya ang kamay ko at hinila para makaalis.

But she stopped and turned her back to face me.

"Lily tara na, you need to fix yourself" usal niya

"April I'm sorry" I whispered "Hindi--Hindi ko sinasadya. I'm-I'm sorry" hinawi ko ang kamay  ko sakanya at napatumba ako sa lupa, I crouched again and started tp cry. "I can do this, I can save you, I can save this, I can save them--yes" Tumango-tango ako, convincing myself that I can do this.

"Lily ano ba? tumayo ka na diyan"

"Iwan mo na ako April, I need to fix this mess that I made-"

"Kaya nga tumayo ka na diyan! Paano mo maliligpit ang kalat na ginawa mo kung pati ikaw sirang-sira na!" Nagalakad siya palapit saakin at pinilit kong itayo. "You need to fix yourself first before fixing this" and that slapped me, it hurts but I need to accept this. I need to fix this starting with myself .

Hindi ko alam kung paano kami nakabalik sa bahay, nakatulala lang ako ngayon at tinitignan ang mga bangkay nila papa. I didn't expect that I killed my mom as well.

I ran towards them. Sinubukan ko sila buhayin pero wala talaga.

"I'm sorry" I look to April who is also sobbing near Blaze's corpse.

"Hindi na ba sila mabubuhay?" she asked

"I will try my best, but-- as of now-" Umiling ako sakanya, she cried even more. Parang sinaksak ako sa magkabilang gilid nang nakita ko ang mga ginawa ko. I cannot forgive myself from doing this. I cannot forgive myself for killing.

The sudden realization hit me again. Na wala na  rin pala saakin si Denzel. We parted our ways, a while ago. But I can slowly accept it, because I love him and seeing him happy even it's not me makes me happy as well. Masakit, but at the end. Our worlds are different and we aren't meant for each other.

I destroyed him, and this is the punishment. Magic demands equality, as well as nature. So I need to face this consequence that I made.

"Lily you need to rest" inayos ni April ang buhok ko

"Sorr-"

"shshs, don't worry. I know you can do this. Naniniwala ako" Lumabas kami at pinahiga niya ako sa sofa, she placed a blanket at me nang nakahiga na ako. I just smiled at her bago ko pa ipikit ang mga mata ko.

Tomorrow, this will be another day, and the starting process of moving on.

My heartbeat pumped faster than normal nang nagising ako, I inhaled and exhaled two times faster. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Maaga na nang nakita ko ang sinag ng araw na tumatagos sa kurtina.