Constantly Recurring (Perpetually Series #3)

01

Chapter 01

"What is this?" Andrew, our President asked. As much as I want to roll my eyes because nakasulat na naman sa papel na binibigay ko sa kaniya kung ano iyon, I just kept it to my self because we're not that close. I don't want to make a bad impression, bad impression was the reason I left my old school.

Beside he's my seat mate. I don't want to spend the whole quarter—possibly semester or school year, bickering with him.

"That's my assignment on Philosophy" I told him instead.

"But this is due until next week"

I took a deep breathe "I.. have things to do. I wouldn't want a workload"

He just nodded. But the truth is, I have nothing to do. I just wanted to get my works done because I want to distract myself. Memories and break-downs are haunting me lately and it sucks. Kapag wala akong ginagawa, naalala at naalala ko si Kyle.

Nabaling ang atensyon ko nang may tumawag kay Andrew. It's vacant right this moment.. I have nothing else to do other than sleep. Pero hirap na din ako makatulog. Na-awkward-an naman ako makipag friends. Ah, life is frustrating.

Bumalik ang tingin ko kay Andrew nang bumalik sa siya sa upuan. May dala siyang mga brochures.

"Ano yan?" Tanong ko. I do not aim to be nosy but it just makes sense to talk to Andrew. He's my seat-mate, he's also quiet, he's the president so may power, and it seems like kami lang dalwa ang walang group of friends dito sa room na ito, so why not?

"Ah.. brochure to join clubs and sports teams" he said. Napatango ako, it's the third week of class. They sure wanted to receuit club members or something. "Do you want one?" He asked

I actually don't plan to join clubs pero dahil nga I want to have good terms with him, if not friends, I just nodded and got one. Bored din naman ako so I might as well read these.

Binubuklat ko ang brochure and everything was interesting. But unexpectedly, something caught my attention

Women's Volleyball

I shrugged the thought. I wanted to play volleyball a very long time ago pa pero ayaw ni Kyle so I had to give up the passion. Now that he's gone..

Ah, I don't know.

I tilted my head down to my desk. Hindi naman ako tutulog, but I wanted to think.

I think I rested my head long enough but I only sat properly nang kinulbit ako ni Andrew. It was our next subject, and uuwi na.

I feel empty, even at school, even at home.

I listened carefully to the lecture. Good thing my attention span was not affected by all the things I'm going through right now. After all, I was trained to be responsible my whole life.

That's why it's a bit crazy to pursue Volleyball. Baka maapektuhan ang pag aaral ko. Tama naman si Kyle dati e.

Besides I'm already Grade 12. I have sufficient reason to give up. Graduating na ako, I need to focus on graduating. I'll get through this.

[From] Charles: Can you wait me? Para sabay tayo umuwi? We have different schedules, sorry.

[To: Charles] I'll go home alone, don't worry. I'm fine.

Walking alone wasn't lonely. It's actually peaceful. I don't have to use up all my social battery and all that. Before I met Kyle, I wasn't exactly this introvert. That's why when we got together, I may have lost some friends. Gan'on siguro pag pumasok ka sa isang relasyon.