Constantly Recurring (Perpetually Series #3)

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Chapter 22

TW: R18— Mature theme/Explicit Words. S/A. Manipulation.

Gawa na yung cake na ginawa ko para sa 3rd anniversary namin ni Kyler. He preferred chocolate chip graham over any cakes and he could practically eat them just in one sitting. I made him this cake because he liked it so much.

We're gonna celebrate our anniversary in advance because we're gonna visit my Grandma in the province.

He's not happy about that of course but he had no choice. I also had no choice..

"Happy Anniversary" We're in a restaurant. Maliit na restaurant lang kasi tight budget ako at ako yung magbabayad. Wala kasi masyadong pera ngayon si Kyler, naubos sa PC Set.

"Happy Anniversary" sabi niya "Sorry babae pa ang magbabayad, bayaan mo sagot ko na portrait shot natin"

We ate his favorite food and went to the studio for a portrait shot. Then.. we went to his house. That's how simple our anniversary went.

I was just waiting for his game to finish by reading when he suddenly grabbed my hands. I flinched so hard na napatayo ako dahil sa gulat

"Why?" Nagtataka siya sa reaction ko

Hindi ko alam ang issagot ko sa kanya. I unconsciously flinch when people touch me. I was afraid to tell him that it's because he's touching me too much. And he's touching me unwanted. He don't ask permission when he do it.

"Wala nagulat lang" Tinabihan ko siya "I'm sorry"

Muli uli akong nag flinch nang hinila niya ako papalapit para halikan. He put me above him and for some reasons.. it made me uncomfy.

"3 years na tayo Cha wala pang nangyayari" he's kissing my neck "I want to fuck you already. I want to rail you in my bed"

I feel.. different.

"Come on Cha. Tinitigasan na ako" he grabbed my hands to let me touch it.

"Andyan ang mga magulang mo" Wala akong ibang maipalusot. I'm afraid to tell him no because it might wreck our relationship.

"Hinaan lang natin" sabi niya. He squished my butt. I felt very uncomfortable. He was kissing him and I kissed him back because that's all I want to do.

Thankfully, my phone rang.

"Hinahanap na ako ni Mama" tumayo ako "Kailangan na yata namin mag impake.. next time nalang babe ha? Text me"

I kissed him in his cheeks and grab his stuff. I almost cried with how I felt. We've done... things but not as far as to sex but every-time we've done something.. I felt used. My heart is so heavy. Gusto kong umiyak...

Dinistract ko ang sarili ko pag dating sa bahay. Hindi masyadong nagt-text sakin si Kyler. In-update n'ya lang ako na pupunta siya sa bahay kaibigan niya para mag inom. I understand him. He has needs at baka nakakahiya ang ginawa ko sa kaniya.

He might be mad at me....

Came the night and sasalubungin ko ang anniversary namin ni Kyler kahit maaga ang alis namin bukas papunta sa probinsya nila Lola.

12:00 AM- January 22

[To <Kyler>] Me: Happy Anniversary babyyy. Pagbigyan mo na ako mag message ng slight hehehe. Thank you for putting up with me. Pasensya kana sa lahat lahat ng pagkukulang koo. I'll promise that I'll be a better person and a better girlfriend for you. I love you soo soo much. Please know that my love for you will never change. Mahal na mahal kita 🤍 to more years with us 🥂