Chapter 06
"I love you" I felt kisses around my cheeks and forehead. I didn't exactly moved "I'm sorry for shouting baby"
It was okay. I happened several times already. I'm used to it
"Huwag mo na ako galitin sa susunod ah?" He whispered. I nodded.
How could I explain to him that I wasn't intentionally making him mad? That no matter what I say, he constantly knows how to make big deal out of it. I wanna say that. But I don't want to fight. I don't want to hear another scream again.
Nagising ako sa pag alog ni Charles sa braso ko. Panaginip pala. It occurred many times this week already. I kept on dreaming about Kyler. I would've been glad if it's about our happy memories but it was all my traumatic experiences from him. I couldn't say he's visiting me, more like, he's haunting me.
"Ano ba yan Charlotte mukang mal-late kana" sabi ni Charles
"Anong oras na?" Tanong ko
"5:40" sabi niya "Late kana"
"Alam ko" sabi ko "Mag aayos na ako umalis kana"
I didn't even eat breakfast because I was worried for a late record. I wouldn't want to have a record like that. I know it's not really a big deal but it bothers me a little— no, I think it really bothers me... I'm seriously considering taking taxi kahit kuripot akong tao. In the end, I've decided to take Angkas.
Hindi ko sinabi kay Charles na mag a-Angkas ako dahil siguradong hindi papayag 'yun. Naka PE naman kami ngayon. Besides, I might be really late.
I felt a relief when I arrived at exactly 6:30 AM. Right on time.
"Why are you always late Charlotte?" My teacher asked me. I know that it's going bad when she personally asked me to talk to her in private. "You're an officer, Vice President no less. How could you possibly set role to your classmates kung palagi ko palalagpasin ang pagiging late mo?"
Hindi ko masabi ang totoo. Kahapon, I was up all night doing Kyle's homework. 2 AM na ako nakatulog at kailangan ko pa iyon i-drop kila Kyle ng umaga.
He was playing Valorant when I arrived and I had to bring him up some breakfast kasi baka ma late s'ya. Ending— ako ang na late.
N'ung mga nakaraang araw naman ay sinasabihan ako ni Kyle na magsabay kami pero minsan tumitigil pa siya para mag vape. O kaya nagpipilitan pa kami pumasok.
I sighed "It's okay if you demote me Miss" bulong ko.
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Little sacrifices.
But I figured that I'll talk about this with Kyle a little. He might've understand... Kyle is a kind person. I think he might listen.
I took a deep breath. Sinundo ako ni Kyle ngayon. Araw araw niya akong sinusundo.
"Tagal mo na naman" bulong niya. His eyes on his phone while playing "Ano na namang ginawa mo?"
"Naglinis ako ng classroom" bulong ko
Nabaling ang atensyon niya saakin dahil sa hina ng boses ko
"Oh" sabi niya "Okay kalang? Anong problema?"
Nanghihina ako "Masama lang pakiramdam ko"
He placed his hands on my neck at nanlaki ang mata niya "Nilalagnat ka babe" My heart fluttered when he put his phone down in the middle of the game to check on me "Hatid na kita"
I feel the warmth. Madalas man kaming mag away, I know that he cares for me. He still gives me affection and that's enough for me. We're together for three years. I know him too well. We created a lot of memories.
Kyler tucked me in the bed and hugged me. I was supposed to be asleep but I decided to seize the moment. Minsan lang kami maging okay. I might as well enjoy every bits of it.
He's caressing my hair "Huwag kana magpapagod ah" he said "Pahinga ka muna wag ka pasok bukas" he planted kisses on my forehead
"Okay" I whispered "I love you"
"I love you baby" he kissed me on my lips "Sleep kana"
Kyler is gentle at times. He tells me he loves me everyday. I tell him that too. Mahal ko si Kyle. Yes he could use some self work but I genuinely want to make us work. I promised myself to work hard in order to understand the every bits of his personality.
He stayed by my side all night. It was enough for me.
Those were few of the things I cling onto. Those were the reason I stayed.
"Okay kalang?" Tanong ni Andrew. He offered me a yakult.
"Oo" sabi ko "Ano 'yan?"
"Ano ba nakikita mo?"
"Yakult" sabi ko
"Edi Yakult" He shrugged. I shrugged. Then I accepted it. "Ayos kalang?" Tanong niya ulit
"Nasabi ko na diba?" I opened the lid of this Yakult completely. Ayokong binubutasan lang ang lid tapos deretso inom, gusto ko aalsin iyon ng buo o di kaya gagamit ng straw.
"Okay" sabi niya "I'm not a good listener pero subukan kong makinig.. kung di ka man okay"
Tumango ako sa kanya. I heard that from my brother, from my family, but not from a friend. Maybe because it's been years since I had one. They always struck me as robotic and hard to read... so someone checking on me means a lot.
"Thank you" I whispered.
It was a little gesture but Andrew walked me to the gate. Sabi niya kasi ay may bibilhin siya sa labas tapos babalik din sa office ng student council kaya sasabayan niya na ako. Tumango lamang ako.
The usual bus stopped at the station. I always go here same time everyday. I'm lucky that my common two seater spot is usually empty.. But not today. There's someone sitting there already. Buti nasakto na hindi ko kasabay si Andrew kasi madalas kami pareho d'yan.
I slightly froze when I saw who was it sitting there. But I continued regardless. I sat beside him.
What is he doing here? I thought he had a car?
"Hello Charlotte" Calvin smiled at me. His smile reached his eyes. There was a sun ray effect on his view. His shining bright eyes are still smiling. His brown hair was messily fixed. There's enough space between us that I could easily capture him.
Napalunok ako at nag iwas ng tingin "Bakit nagb-bus ka? 'Di ba may kotse ka?" I looked straight. I felt the sun rays projected towards us.
"Yes, Charlotte" he said. I couldn't help but to shift my gaze into the unbelievably pretty view of him "Yes I have a car"
"Why are you not using it, then?" Tanong ko. Kung ako ang tatanungin mo, mas gugustuhin ko mag drive kung meron man akong opportunity. Is he coding or what? Why is he commuting instead? Nakaka stress kaya ang pag commute. Maingay, minsan mainit, minsan delikado. Kung may choice lang talaga ako.. matagal na akong gumamit ng private vehicle. Pero sabagay, baka nga naman nakakapagod mag drive. Lalo kung traffic.
His hazelnut eyes stared on mine. He's studying it again. Napalunok ako. Why are we staring at each other? Kanina pa 'to ah. May mali ba sa muka ko?
"I wonder why" he said "I also wonder why I'm not using it" he whispered
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