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Jen is right. Her perceptions were right. He's in love with me. And he saw that kiss.
Umalis ako sa lugar na yon and pasakay na sana ako ng kotse ng pigilan ako ni Jen.
"Where do you think you're going?"
"I just need to breath."
"Abi, you can do it kahit kailan at kahit saan."
"Jen, Please!" as I cried.
"No! I won't let you!" she yelled.
"Fine!" I said.
"He's an asshole." sabi ko ulit.
"Naiwan ako don, naiyak ako, ako kasi akala ko that was the reason. Natakot ako. Until hindi ko na sya nakita. Nag-alala ako. Umiyak ulit ako. Pinupuntahan ko yung lugar kung san lagi kaming nagkikita. Pero wala sya. Baka sakali. Gusto ko sanang magsorry."
Pinunasan ko ulit ang luha ko.
"Nalaman ko to lahat, nakaramdam ako ng sakit. All this time, akala ko friendly attachment lang nararamdaman ko kaya super concern ako. Namimiss ko sya. Yung mga pinagsasasabi nya, it's echoing repeatedly in my mind like Rodney's when I still can't get over him. All this time, umiikot-ikot ang mga nalalaman ko sa utak ko. Ang family business nina Pat na hawak ng ex boyfriend ko..."
I sarcastically smile habang pinupunasan ang luha ko na tulo na ng tulo.
"...Pumayag ako na magpanggap si Patrick na maging boyfriend ko. Para malaman ang totoo kay Rodney. While we were pretending, unti-unti kong nalalaman ang totoo, unti-unti din akong nawawalan ng feelings kay Rodney. I feel so secure with Pat. He made me feel so special more than Rod can do. And suddenly, I finally figured it out na I was falling in love with him, when Rod kissed me." Napatungo ako at napailing-iling nalang.
"So ridiculous. While he's so dumbass." I said while still smiling sarcastically.
"Maybe it's not your time?" Jen said.
Napatingin ako sa kanya.
