"she's entertaining a gentleman friend, and doesn't want me disturbing", I choked
"fuck, the last thing I want to think about is Amanda having sex", holland laughed repulsed
"what about sex with me?", I blurted out, the alcohol running to my head
Hollands eyes darted straight for me, her expression completely blank
"I'm sorry", I stood up quickly walking towards the door
"Sarah wait", holland chased after me
"I have to go", i called walking into the kitchen to grab my bag
"we should talk about this", she said standing in the door frame
"talk about what! there is nothing to talk about!", I scrambled
"there is something to talk about", she said calmly
"I've had to much to drink, please just let me go", I said standing in from of her, as she was blocking the door way
"Sarah talk to me"
"I don't want to", I tried to push past her
"just stop", she said hardly placing her hands on my shoulders
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that", I cried
"it's okay", holland hushed me
"I want to leave.. please", I looked down
"I don't want you to go", her hand made its way to me cheek "please talk with me"
"I can't", I whimpered
"why", she breathed
"because I don't know what to say", I looked at her her
holland nodded, carefully taking my hand before walking us back to sit on the couch
"Sarah.. talk to me", she whispered taking my hand back into hers
"I don't know what's going on with me", I sighed
"what do you mean?"
"when I'm with you.. I don't know.. I just feel different.. god I don't know what I'm saying", I stuttered beginning to get emotional
"I know I-"
"I have to go", I stood up once again
"no you don't", she looked up at me
"I want to go", I mumbled
"no you don't", Holland stood up next to me
"I'm so sorry", I cried
"come here", she whispered walking closer and taking me into her arms
"I need to move classes", I spoke into her shoulder
"now, why you do that?", she smiled
"because..", I shook my head
holland cleared her throat before cupping my cheek, making me look at her
"god your enticing", she breathed
"Holland this-", I began only to be cut off with hollands lips on my own, lingering for a couple of seconds before withdrawing
"do you ever stop talking?', she beamed, but I just dropped my head, not knowing what to do
"don't look down darling"
Holland held my chin, raising my head, but I couldn't hear a word that she said. My heart beat was rapidly, eliminating every sound.
"please", I breathed
